A. I tend to isolate myself most of the time.

B. I have mild to severe panic attacks when anyone drives up my driveway. Knocks on the door or the telephone rings. (Who is it and what do they want?)

C. I hate large crowds, I hate long lines, I hate it when someone gets in my face or personal space. I have severe anxiety when things are suddenly in chaos. Like when I see a person or group of people running in a mall or store.

D. I hate being in traffic and traffic jams, I tend to feel suffocated and weepy. I really hate it when I am tailgated, especially when they can easily pass me.

E. I get very anxious preparing to go anywhere or for a trip.

F. I hate it when I have to make small talk, I freeze up, my mouth turns dry and I stutter, then sound like an idiot and usually say something stupid.

G. I hate it when I'm interrupted when I'm working on something that requires my concentration. I startle VERY easily.

H. I'm a scared wimp. If someone bullies me I tend to get away as fast as possible. If I can't then I physically get as much distance between them and me. I try to not voice an opinion unless pressed. On occasons I have had to go to the rescue of others and surprised myself at how I could function in their behalf. But for me I'm not doing so well.

I. Whenever I see a perp in public I turn to jelly and lose it.

J. Whenever ther is bad weather I do the same and become very fretful and fearful.

K I have a hard time multitasking.

L. I HATE being blamed for something I had absolutely NO control over.

M. Being used as a "whipping boy" is the worst for me.

N. Being coerced into doing something I didn't want to do and then finding out I was being used.

O. Depending upon the word of someone and finding out they lied to me.

P. Being gossiped about then finding out later.

Q. Being cursed or abused physically, I start shaking violently.

R. Seeing torture of any kind. Also, accidents or health emergencies.

S. Large waves of water, large bodies of water, looking at water from a great height.

T. Extreme heat or cold brings on bad memories

U. When around people who are tense, arguing or in some type of confrontation. I become a child again, simply helpless and at a loss at what to say or do. Exception is when children are involved, see H. above.

V. Become very frustrated when attempting to resolve an error in billing or poor workmanship on something fixed or built.

W. Even though I have found out I have an extremely high IQ I feel very stupid.

X. When pushed to meet a deadline I become error prone and physically clumsy. Doubt my decisions and second guess my original proposal or work or whatever.

Y. Have never truly confronted all the anger, hate, rage, fury and built up repression foisted upon me from all the abuse. I hold myself in like a run away horse with tight reins.

Z. Knowing I will never, in this lifetime, be whole, resolving myself to my predicament and dealing with it in an intellectual manner does not always work. Taking it moment by moment, being as gentle with myself instead of blaming myself.