I sure appreciate the quick replies.
Cecilia, i wish i could say "oops, you made a tiny mistake" with a smile...instead of seeing red automatically. I can do that with kids because they have not yet learned how to be buttholes who hurt on purpose. Kids just don't harm each other on purpose, but adults do it all the time.
(I think!)

MShadow, I can't stop myself when I feel a major meltdown coming on because it's so fast. I lose control before you can blink. I want to learn how to stop myself, and maybe ask the person if they are really trying to get me upset or not, because they are. Do buttholes tell you honestly?

Hey Pandora, our lives are not the easy ones. At least we know when to ask for help!

Lina's mamma, I am now in therapy, and I never want this T to retire. I have been medicated and therapized for 15 years. Yes, I quilt for fun, but it makes me feel bad when my art is not understood by others. My quilts are abstract. Not your granny's style! It does make me feel good to do it and I try not to show it off because people look at my art as if it were an upsidedown kindergardener's painting, and then ask me, 'What is it?' with a sour look.

Oh, and avoiding stressors... I am leaving in a minute to go let Geico check out the damage to my vehicle after one of their insured's caused the car accident. This is the nastiest insurance company on the planet, pulling all kinds of questionable unethical crap on --me--, the one who did NOT cause the accident. Y'all be thinking nice, pleasant, calming thoughts for me as I try real hard not to get arrested for assault when they say something or do something that pisses me off.

I want some chocolate.