wow, you have had a rough time of it! I just put a post out about the details of my meltdown at work, than I read your story. I feel for you.

Very similiar with the MVA accident and crashing at the workplace. Definitely not a safe place to do so, but I learnt something from it.

I learnt that when I'm anxious I need to deal with it, if I try and stuff it...I'll snap and I never want to experience that again. It's not easy dealing with anxiety but necessary for me. I love to put my feelings in a compartment and stuff them so far down...sadly they don't stay there any longer they come out in a rage or a feeling of hopelessness.

Not sure, if you have a good therapist to talk with? Mine has helped me greatly, she is working on behavioural therapy with me...fantastic results for people with PTSD.

Take care,

Roxanne