Hi everyone
this is my first post. Me Im 45. I live on Long Island and I was diagnosed with PTSD in 1989. Im not sure if I have the same backround as many on here as my PTSD was kind of self induced. I do know that I have a lot of problems with rage. I do hold it in but I feel no one understands me. Im constantly fighting with my mom and I need help. I have been so abusive with her and Im ashamed of it. Yet she drives me crazy
My Ptsd is kind of strange in its development and where it happened. I played a lot of Ice hockey in the 80s and we did a lot of drinking and drugging and somehow I got this disorder. I honestly could not adjust to life without Hockey beer and drugs LOL. I know this probably sounds crazy but its true. I have suffered so much depression because of it. I never could stand work and I get these flashbacks of the past where I want to be. I feel like a total freak in regard to this and there is so much more but I figure this would be agood start. Am I crazy or what. I hope this board and people can help me with this problem I have had for 18 years. I have always felt stuck is it possible for me to become unstuck. maybe this is the help i need maybe I need to see a shrink