This whole thing got me analyzing myself a bit too much. I'm going through a difficult time (triggered last night) and I can't tell if this is healthy to do or not. I'm quite confused about all of this now. I feel like an emotional yo-yo. I see my own growth and yet feel like such a freak. I can relate to most everything Midnite has said (and other posts I've read). I'm feeling quite confused. The more I read the more confused, frustrated and out of control I feel. I feel very disturbed.