I am feeling verrrrrrrrrrry sleeeeeeeeeeeepy.

I feel grateful that I have the tools that I do.
I feel happy that it's monsoon season and such nice weather.
I feel happy that I have friends.
I feel hopeful that I will work through this emotional crap.
I feel proud that I have continued to put one foot in front of the other.

I feel angry that I didn't steer my life better.
I feel sad that I made so many poor choices.
I feel sad that I devalued myself so much.
I feel afraid that I'll never find and fulfill my purpose.
I feel afraid that I will be judged for wasting/losing so much time.
I feel guilty that I didn't hang on to myself, that I threw myself away.

What do I need?
I need to continue the work I'm doing. Feel the feelings. Accept.

What do I need right now?
Cleansing breaths. Open the window for fresh air. Get back to work.