Its funny you say that, as Kerrie-Ann said exactly that about me when she met me, in that I was like a switch. When I walked in the Army gates, the switch turned on to military, and nothing else mattered, work work work, completely focused. When I left, the switch went off, and everything that I couldn't handle came out... then suppressed through lots of alcohol and cigarettes. I knew it myself, but I thought it was a good thing to be able to do that.

When I gave up smoking end 2003, that is when things started to really get on top of me, being I couldn't handle everything anymore, my work performance decreased dramatically, and my life... alcohol got more involved to pickup for what cigarettes used to do... but still couldn't cut it. As you probably know, cigarettes are a known form of suppressing PTSD symptoms, being the nicotine that is.

Your right though, love is the key to it all. Love those around you, and they are the ones that help us through all this. I tell you what, I'm kinda getting excited for you now, with the EMDR so close... I'm looking forward to chatting with you after it, to see how it goes for your circumstances... It would be so nice to see you get a bit more from life, compared to what your past has thrown you. You deserve all good things... and you should know that.