Started deep relaxation techniques before sleep last night for the first time. It actually worked (yeah, I can act surprised)

I slept almost ten hours (straight through, no nightmares, nothing). IT has been years since I have slept without waking up in a panic. I just *wows*

Today however- work was work. For some reason, I started my shift fine, then started getting anxious. Even now I'm still on edge- this over three hours after I finnished.

I think one of the worries I have today is that I had to fill out a self evaluation at work. I sat there and looked at the Q's and thought, right.

By it I am crap at my job- or at least my attitude is crap. I take sick days a lot- mainly because if I am having a high anxiety day (like yesterday where I ended up at the doctors) I won't go to work. I don't think it is fair on the residents or the other staff for me to do it.

Other then that, well, I'm going ok today. Heh yeah, am going to drag my ass to the shower, get nice and warm, then climb into bed with my sweety.