My name is Jeff and I live in Upstate, NY. I was a police officer for 13 years from 1993 thru 2006. I was involved in many suicides and other graphic deaths. I have been unable to get these bad experiences out of my head. I was just approved for SSDI and will receive benefits starting in October. I am 38 years old and I have 3 children ages 14, 12 and 11 months. My youngest is with my Girlfriend. I left my wife in 2005 and I am still working on a divorce as she is not willing to work with me. I have been hospitilized in 5 different crisis centers. My last stay we used Cognitive Therapy which I really liked. I am signed up for a Cognitive Therapy session which lasts 12 weeks and start on August 6th. I have custody of my 2 older children yet my ex continues to file rediculous petitions against me in an attempt to get custody of the boys. She is an unfit mother and has 3 indicated CPS reports against her for injuring our children. I have a very hard time with anxiety and depression. I have not used any benzos in 2 months. I have had my medications cut in half in the last 2 months. I will see my new psychiatrist on August 14th. I also have serious back problems I have a spinal stenosis and neropathy in my legs and damaged nerves in my legs and feet. I am also diabetic and have problems with my heart racing. I am trying to overcome these issues because I want to be around for my children. Well I am new here and would love to have anyone interested reply to me to chat. I hope to get some support from everyone possible. Thanks for reading my post and god bless...