I used to cry silently. . . .and very very hidden.. . I couldn't cry in front of someone if my life depended on it.

Now - sometimes I cry silently - if I'm trying to control it. . .for some weird reason or another. . .but most the time I sob. I REALLY SOB.

I don't sob in front of anyone, though. . .and I tend to still really try to control it in front of people. . .but I'm finding myself less and less able to do so.

Which, I think is a good thing. I need to lose that self control in THIS aspect. I need to cry.