Don't know if anyone has noticed my post titles are usually musically referenced. This is because every thought, feeling, random outburst that strolls thru my head has it's own theme song. Even the rare moments of lucid silence have musical accompaniment.

As for this thread subject, I am a yes. And like many others my med of choice is MJ, although I have not been able to acquire it except rarely since leaving the south.

I was on a 2-3 doob a day regimen and it kept my demon (rage) manageable. I could be angry without losing control. It did not deaden my emotions as I still felt overwhelmed at times of turmoil and would have hours long sob fests on occasion.

What it is for me is "The Great Cohesive", it brings all of the me's together, united against external and internal assualt. It quiets the malestrom of my brain activity and allows me to pluck ideas and thoughts as a whole instead of in shreds. My writing has been complimented and much as I appreciate the notice if you knew how long it actually takes..like listening to a song played warped, at high speed and trying to write down the lyrics..so I replay my thought again and again until I can get it all down. Wouldn't you know my mind has a sadistic twist to it and will sometimes change the thought or replay at a faster speed or lose it altogether.. o_O yeesh

I have recently reconsidered professional therapy but it raises such a clamor of dissention within my head that I quickly dismiss the notion. Seems this forum is the closest thing my psyche will accept. So on I go, sans meds.