First, vent and get your feelings out. No one is your judge; you should be honest about the feelings because if you aren't we won't be able to do jack shit for support! Don't worry about offending. If we get offended we can get over it too. No point tippy toeing around here, we are all jacked in the head any way too and get it. If one person doesn't, it doesn't mean the next ten won't get it!

The person at work. I think even the most normal, "sane", well put together people have one in the work place that drives them nuts. I know I have heard it from others about the one who has their head so far up their backside they would not know the sun is shining they have to work with. Extra fun for a PTSDer.

Your reaction... some loss of control. Look at the bright side, you did not bean her and move on! And yeah, it is pretty typical to want to still bean them. I have people I have worked with almost 10 years ago I wish I could beat sense into them, and I haven't seen them in that long! Not healthy but reality. Not as bad as I used to so it gets better. But you will start to do what you need to and be able to control it. You have controlled yourself for 5 months, right? Now you have to work on not obsessing over it.

I am pretty certain she probably tries to avoid you at this point? Or is she that stupid not to after that? You are certainly going to have people in the work place that grind your nerves and especially so with PTSD. I know that with it I think the general public seriously lacks common sense and it drives me insane. I think that is a pretty common way to feel with PTSD. As with PTSD what we see as common sense doesn't seem to really be to the rest of the world.

What you should do, or try to, is see that you cannot change people around you or mold them. No amount of getting pissed is going to help, just add even more stress to an already stressed mind. Since you can't change others, you work at changing your perspective. Lot of work and easier said than done. Amuse yourself in your head over this person and their idiocy if need be. But don't give them the power to control you and how you feel. It does control how you feel when you obsess over it too. It takes a lot of practice and it doesn't happen over night, but one of the things you have to accept. You know the whole accept the things I cannot change, the strength to change what I can, and the wisdom to know the difference...

You can't change she is an annoying dim-wit. You can't :boxem: So all you have left is accept it, accept how you feel about her. Then you work on your real issues, since she isn't one. You are just full of rage and she is a good target since you already can't stand her. As annoying as she is, she isn't what is making you feel like this to this extreme. You get to what is and accept reality of people are annoying and that is life and you will be feeling better and not want to harm as much. We have a bad habit of going after an easy target the rubs us the wrong way rather than facing our demons that made us this way.

Have you started a trauma diary yet? It is a good way to get started and get the demons out.
Sorry for being long winded, bad habit.