I thought I had just been unhappy because my husband was out of work and I felt soooo much better when he got a job. Nope I didn't need couseling. Who me? Until I had a major temper tantrum as a result of:

A. Lifting a very heavy laundry basket and hurting my back and arm (I felt bad that my mom was carrying laundry for me). As a result of my previuousely broken back and arm, I get a little ouchy when I exert myself.

B. I was locked out of my own house because I forgot that my dh has the only set of keys since my MIL and SIL cleaned my house when I was ill. I know they ment well, but there are things I still can't find in my home because of this. So I had to drive to my dh's work and wait for him to drive me home. It was only ten minutes untill he was due to go home anyway.

C. My mom proceeded to go around my yard picking up trash and offering to help me clean. I know, how dare she help me clean but I feel like she has enough to do with out helping me. I mean it has been a year after the accident. I feel guilty accepting people's help I'm not an invalid.

D. To top it all off my dh in attempt to help informed me that I have tendency to minimize my pain and refuse to admit it when I am hurting. He says he can always tell when I'm in pain because I seem very angry. I have to admit he's right.

E. I snarled at my bf who's like a sister to me.

It seems like I panic and get angry when I can't do things as I did before, you know? Judging from the length of this post I was obviousely more upset than I thought.

Anyway I'll be making an appointment for therapy as soon as my dh gets his first paycheck. On second thought since that's less than two weeks away now, I think I'll just call for the appointment tommorow and schedule it for soon after he gets paid. This is rediculus.