Aren't the temper flare ups fun? Nope. I threw the mother of my hissy fits when my hubs cooked and set up my little one's pool. I reamed him like no one has gotten it before, in front of his mom. Yes, "how dare he" We knew it was just getting out of hand at that point. He never did get really upset with me. I had unleashed for some unknown reason a good while back while I was still drinking. He made the mistake of telling me to hit him to let it out. The details are very fuzzy for me, just remember doing it to the point of him holding a pillow up. I guess little ol' me wasn't expected to let loose so hard. I was horrible, and am thankful he is still around! Or more baffled.

You feel like an ass later... Yes, counseling will do some good. I am glad you will be going and hope it works out for you! I was very angry I could not do what I could before. I always seemed to manage to finally not functioning at all. I am getting through it now and actually going to get up and try to cook tonight. I am learning not to feel guilty about being a pain in the ass. I just am and that is the way it is for now. Will I ever be what I was capable of? Probably not but a happy place in the middle would be nice, and I see myself slowly getting there. I hope you get to see it too.