A friend told me that when I have a hard time telling someone something because I get emotional or tongue-tied when I try to say it face-to-face to write it down in a letter. You do that and give it to your friend with the instructions to read it when you're not there or mail it to him. That way you're not stresssing out while he reads it.

I have the contradictory feelings of wanting to be close to the people I care about and then I just want to be left the hell alone. And when these feelings come about 30 second apart it's harder still. Shoot, there's sometimes I can't even stand to be in the same room with myself. When I'm home and I feel like pushing my family away I just make an annoucement that I need some alone time and take a bubble bath or just hide in my room and read.

It's just one more thing to add to my 'Working on It' list. That damn thing keeps growing! LOL