Still rage. Started to calm but it is back. I got a note home from the girl's school in the mail. She has a 47 in a class. She is also now in detintion at school for excessive tardies. One of the notes said she has not been going to tuorials in that class as I told her to do with the bad grade.

She was told if this other crap kept up and I was taking the halloween costume and no trick or treat. So... I get this on top of it; as I am up in her room with hubs looking for it (costume) we come across a note book. It was next to where she said I would find her black lipstick. I am mom so I look in it. Full of hate for me and step dad and how she so idolizes her dad. I am sick and it is ALL my fault her dad who "loves her so" much is not around. And goes on about the many boy friends of mine. Excuse me???? In 16 years I married 3 times and dated very briefly twice. She met them once or twice. Now I have been with my husband about 5 years and she is writing how she wish I would just settle on one man. This was written last month as she dated it. WTF? it has been 5 years what do you men settle???? Going on how she wants him gone... Um, not going to happen.

Very good thing the children are all out of the home this weekend. It would not have been pretty in my state of mind (reason kids are gone as withdrawals are making me a nasty person) and I am at a total loss. And gee she knows what her dad did. #2 hub spoils them rotten go figure she prefers him, and #3 had a boyfriend for Gods sake and she knew it. And some how she thinks I was at fault for the failing relationships... I swear my head is going to blow up.

Anyone in need of a teen????? .25 cents or better yet I will pay! ARGH!