Don't apologize Marlene, that is an awesome reply! I can see how you would feel "stuck" and not know where to go next. Status quo is good, but for only awhile. I think you are on the right track, you are already unhappy with the status quo, angry at people to try to minimize your hell, disapointed that you can't "get over it" (I'll shoot someone who tells me that :moon: )

Stay on course. You will have the success to prove what you are made of. Curiosity is your key to opening some of the right doors.
How to do that? Pick your battles (work, staying strong for the family, dealing with those who don't understand). Be sure and look at things truthfully, always ask yourself "if there were no other considerations, what would be best for me?" Journalling can help keep you focused and give you a place to look back on and see actual progress you are making.

Don't sweat the small stuff / Everything is small stuff