Yes I could go 90min away and admitt mysel if the crisis gets too severe.
It won't change the situation at home however. It is becoming war of the roses here. I extended my sick leave twice with my doc now. She won't do it again however. Told me to get my s*** together and get out of relationship I am in. The flashbacks are less intrusive with paxils. The lorazepams cause me too much confusion, memory loss an no motivation to do anything at all, except sleep. A temporary solution which did it's job too well. Also made me really crave the beer. maybe just me I don't know.
I also have read online that in PTSD and depression conbined that the Psyc's found benzo's did not work in a lo of cases. Can't remember the link at this moment sorry
I finally got my story online here. It's working now I will post the link in the trauma diaries for you all.
Hubbies hiding in motorhome in barn and after yesterdays episode I think he can stay there permanently. I am so sick of verbal attacks and false assumptions. I just will not even try to explain myself to these people anymore. They have already made up there minds and unfortuntely there is nothing I can do except stand guard over what I have left. This makes the counsellor solution unprobable at this point. Small town, small minded hics.
Not born here don't fit in mentallities. I finally fell asleep around 3:30 I had power out three times due to winters first full blast last night,ice rain ect.
I was disconnected in the middle of downloads, posts, research ect.
Mustget food into me that's all for now.