First off-thank you for letting me know I'm not ready for (as my oldest daughter calls it) the 'I love hugging myself jacket'. LOL As I hit the submit button on that post I was really afraid that someone would say 'Hey! You really are crazy...turn in your membership card and go away.'

I read all the posts and decided to see if I could remember when and where these happened the most. The one the other night at home is the only time it's ever happened at home. Then it hit me. It's either been going to work, at work or coming home from work. What happened on Friday was not long after I got home from a rough week.

When I'm at work, I feel like I have to be on guard at all times. And as Bec asked, yes I am aware of just about every conversation that happens around me and everyone's movment around me. I used to be able to just tune out the world. Now I have to shut my office door and turn up the radio just to get a little peace. I saw a coffee cup that said 'Good morning. Let the stress begin.' That's how I feel when I hit the door every morning. Sometimes as I drive home in the evenings, I can literally fell the stress melting off of me.

I really hope it gets better at work. I like what I do, I'm good at what I do, I work with some really great people...I just have an incredibly insensitive shit for a boss. *sigh* Two weeks before my father died my boss's son killed himself. I figured that he, above most people, would be sympathetic to emotional pain. But when he was giving me his 'get over it' speech he told me 'My son killed himself. But did I give into it like you are? No. You have to be strong like me.' All I could think was 'Wow...at least I admit I have problems.' LOL