Marilyn_S
23-04-2007, 05:10 AM
For a long time I struggled arduously with intense feelings of inner shame at the secrets that were contained in the deep and safely tucked recesses of my brain. I did not realize low self worth was an eroding and forebody enemy of my spirit and will to thrive. I thought that the love I have for others was deep enough to cover the canyon of emptiness left inside me by my own lack of willingness to accept the person I am. Until just very recently I was hidden by a shadow of delf doubt that only served to perpetuate a state of stagnatious neediness within me. I have found the culpret of my termultuous state of being and that culpret is toxic shame! The secrets I held with my mind and heart were poison to me in the form of toxic shame. Then a strong, bold, but gentle voice of a very caring human being torched the cankerous infection of my shame by darting me with an arrow of truth. I need not be rescued by someone else to show I am worthy of healing and comfort. I am worth rescuing my own self. I do not have to live with shame and secrets. I can live with pain, anger, anguish, and hope. It is OK to feel. Thank You voice of wisdom. You will forever have a place of fondness in my heart!