Just Diagnosed With PTSD

[nurse1]

Hey everyone. I am not a vet or rape victom but. I have had my own terrism tramatic events. Not really ready to share my full story. All I can say is that I have suffered for many years. I have just started with professional help because I am very tired of having my family.work.and personal life suffer from my baggage. I dont know alot about this disorder other than all the pain it has caused me. I have not started the actual treatment and not sure what all that will intel.
My doctor has just annouced to me this is what I suffer from. I came from a home that stabbings.broken bones. just outright abuse were seen and indured. I tried to leave that world behind but its always there and keeps coming back. So I guess you dont have to be raped or a vet to feel terror.
I admire everyone here who has served our country. And my heart goes out to any rape victom. For the record I did go threw being raped as an adlult also. I dont think that was the onset of my disorder. So I really feeling that I am in my own catagory. I guess I am feeling a little alone. I have not met anyone in my life thats had such a scary childhood. But the common link is that I do understand the symtoms of PDSD.
Thank you for your time in reading this. I really hope to get to know more about PDSD and how to cope .

[anthony]

Hi nurse, welcome to the forum. This forum is not for any person of particular type of trauma, it is for anyone with PTSD. Simple as that.... not exclusive, nor categorised into any type of trauma, hence the nature of the PTSD Forum!

[nurse1]

Thanks for your welcome. Sorry to sound so stupid about the cause of PTSD. After goung to other furums and checking them out. It seem like that they really concentrated on War Vets and raped victoms. Even my Doctor deals with Vets at the local VA hospital and has PTSD from war. I think I actually have a guilt complex for having the DX. Like I am taking something away from vets. And really didnt read the furum enough before my post to realize that the are alot of abused adult children who suffer from this.

All I know is that I cant wait until my next appointment. I can start looking foward to sometype of treatment. At this time for me I am in severe pain just remembering past events. Emotions are not my specialty and dont like to feel much at all.


I hope that this whole thing gets easier. The only reason that I had to deal with it was because I could no longer perform on my job and I guit. I am 37 and hadnt ever slowed down in life to this slowed me down. I am at a standstill in life right now. I know I have to break this wall thats holding me here. I dont feel as if this is going to be and easy fix. I know this will be painful to open back doors in my life that I have tried so hard to keep it all behind me.

Thank you again you sound very surportive and understanding.

[anthony]

Well, bad news is, it actually gets harder before it gets easier, though that is a good thing for your own sake. Trust me when I say, if it doesn't get hard for you, and your not wiped out, moody, irritable and angry when you leave therapy, get a new therapist near immediately, because you should be worn out at the end of a session if done right. You must be pushed, you must get worse first, which means your being pushed to deal with your trauma, get it out and deal with it, no longer fear it. To do this, you will get obviously worse.

The worse is only a short term thing though in the scheme of things, if done correctly and if pushed hard enough. Good luck with your recovery.

[cookie]

hey, nurse, welcome to the forum.

[cactus_jack]

Hi Nurse, welcome aboard!

[hodge]

Hi, I really relate to having work difficulties because of ptsd from abusive epxeriences from childhood and beyond. Just want to say welcome. There's a lot of helpful information here, both in the Information section as well as all the posts on people's experiences. I hope you'll find it all useful, as I have.

I tried to leave it behind, too, for years in fact, but, as my therapist says, that strategy ends up kicking you in the butt, eventually. Too true for me.

[nurse1]

Thanks for the welcome everyone.

[mouse]

welcome nurse \
I understan your feelings and I have worked as a medic for years so I understand the traumas you have seen but maybe not the ones you have endured. chat with you anytime

[nurse1]

Thanks mouse for your post. Its nice to chat with people who understand

[pandora]

Welcome nurse 1, I am also a nurse.

PTSD has kicked my butt too and I am off work as well, I tried to go back, went too early and just about didn't make it, how can we take care of others when it is so hard to even take care of ourselves and families. i wish both of us the best. I miss my nursing career, it was everything to me.

[nurse1]

Thanks for your comment. But it just sucks. I am working at this lesser job and seeing some friends. And that sucks to. My company is so large I had hopes of getting to my department without being notice by the surgical staff. No such luck. Seen someone everyday this week.

And my job is stress free but boring now.

Take Care Pandora

[nurse1]

Yeah I went back to work in a different part of the hospital. Big pay cut and title due to stress. In case you didnt read my thread in the PSTD forum.

[pandora]

i also went to my regular position which was supervisory and then I was supposed to go and work in one of there extended care facilities instead of palliative care. then i hurt my back and I really can't do either position. I am on LTD but it has given me the opportunity to really deal with the issues that caused my PTSD. Take Care, I wish you the best of luck.

[RNning]

Hey there, I too am a nurse - my trauma goes back a long way and it is quite the experience to have flashbacks, dissociate and otherwise not trust. I am sure life has given you plenty of reasons to be where you are. Send me a private message if you feel free to share....it does help. You will need to see a good cousellor.

[pandora]

If you haven't started therapy but wish to make sure you get someone that is trained in trauma, it has really helped me.

[pandora]

Hey RNning and Nurse 1, we should do a chat sometime? Anyone interested?

[ASterling]

Hi nurse - I hope you are doing better today. I can relate to what you say, because you're right, I feel like I could be taking attention away from Veterans, law enforcement and rape victims too (well, I am a rape victim but it was many years ago).

One thing that occurred to me. It took me a little over two years to get help after I was raped. It is the same amount of time for me now. Maybe our patterns are unique to ourselves.

I am very grateful for this site.

[Grama-Herc]

Welcome Nurse... I felt the same as you when I first joined this forum, especially since I remember nothing about the reason for my PYSD--long story--just know that everyone here belongs here no matter what the reason because the pain is the same. Hope we can help you in the coming months of therapy. Anthony is right! Itis going to get rough but the light at the end is worth the ride. Any of us will help anytime, just ask Good luck and work hard HERC

[Grama-Herc]

Hey Nurse 1 I seem to be noticing a trend here. Seems there are quite a few medical people in this forum. I worked in ERs and ICUs as a unit secretary. I had no formal training and was trianed on the job--sorta stupid thing for mgnt to do-but they did. Anyway, seems the medical field can take a toll on the mind?????

[GR-ass]

Welcome hon

Glad you came here. It does get harder before it gets better, but there is a light at the end of it (or maybe thats the drugs ;)

*erm*

Yeah, a hell of a lot of medical type people here :faint: I know we have docs, paramedics, nurses. . . . .

I'm a care worker. . . .


Doesn't dare look into it *hugs* and bounds around sharing chocolate.