Sorry Everyone

[pandora]

I actually feel like a part of something...even if the people are secretive and afraid and embarrassed because of their past and it is hard to make friends...I have seen and it took me a year to let people in.. I never imagined this forum would become a way of life for me to communicate with others in such pain too, just looking for someone to assist them.. I have been feeling sorry for myself because i have so many traumas but so do others here...i finally am telling myself I am not a freak...i am a hurt wounded soul but i am working hard to repair relationships I have lost..I have been posting more in others diaries and I know I have some good things to say, sometimes it makes me feel good to see progress from something i have said or written........well written. My chat won't work...freezes my laptop everytime. Maybe i should try on my roommates before we go our separate ways, anyway I have received so much positive support and i have been so focused on my healing that I have not been using the user cp..that lets others know you appreciate their words and their little green dots increase...I have gotton mine at three and would love to know I am making a difference..so i am going to try from now on to take part in this process of helping each other and giving each other even kinder things to read...anything nice that is said...always will make a difference. i want to make a diference...I want to heal and i want my knowledge, cbt, nursing skills to continue to help others in any way.......so the sorry is..to all the people that support me and I did not use the user cp properly..i am sure I read it but my brain is like mush sometimes and my short term memory fails me more often than I would like.:kiss:I will try my best to thank you this way. I plan to never leave this forum it has become like She said...a lifeline.:Hug_emoticon:

[She Cat]

Pand,

Personally and my opinion only.......You have done nothing wrong that requires an apology. ALL of us at different times have needed more than we can give..... It's just part of PTSD. We are all at different levels of healing, and some need, some give. That's what this place is all about.

I recently have been depressed, and have needed and received. I thank all of those that have offered their shoulder and advice. Yes this place is a life line for some of us.

[Awakening]

What's going on?

[2quilt]

Pand,
You have done nothing to apologize for, honey!
We can tell that you have alot of stress right now with everything going on.
Keep breathing and be patient with yourself, Pandora; we are all patient too.

[Murphy's Law]

I have been feeling very guilty for "needing". Feeling not very worthy. It is just nice to know others need too. And its really nice that so many are willing to give here.

[Grama-Herc]

Pandora

You are exactly where I was this past Christmas season. You are sensing and feeling the same things I was. I am so sorry you are in this bad place. But trust me when I say "this to shall pass"

We all need different things at different times. I have discovered that the people I connect with sometimes are not able to help me when I need it cuz they are in need.

Reach out to others! There is always someone, even a newbie or a stranger that can at least listen and offer something to help out.

This community has come a long way and means a lot to a lot of people. We are all here for one main reason. "Understanding"

All any of us have to do to received what we need is ask for it. Smile and know WE
are all here for you . We are all in the same boat, just sitting in different seats

[Lucky Laser]

You have nothing to apologize for. I can tell that you are a really nice person and I haven't been here for very long. You are just as important to everyone here as they are to you. :)

[pandora]

Awakening...I was referring to neglecting to use the reputation button...it gives me a boost but I didn't realize it was there for a while.

Thanx everyone....anxiety with no sleep equals me worrying about everything and my life is kind of falling apart better with the positive self talk though.

[pandora]

Gramma Herc....."This too shall pass was so triggering".......thank you...definately something I am avoiding and need to face. Thank you for helping me today in more than one way!

[tude]

Dude, I don't know about you, but I have more important things to address than some 'reputation button'. Damn. I could care less about it. What's more important to me is am I taking care of myself today and how am I dealing with the stress? Are you taking care of yourself? It seems to me that your are. That's all that is important to me.

Take care of your Self first and foremost!

tude

[Grama-Herc]

tude

While I realize that you have better things to do with your time than worry about some "reputation button", there are those of us that feel the need to know that we are indeed helping.

To be here and constantly take and never give back is an issue with me. It is also, apparently, important to Pandora. I know how she feels. The ability help someone besides ourselves is important.

To always be on the receiving end of this forum makes us feel bad. I, along with Pandora want to be able to at least "think" we may have impacted the life of another person in something we said.

The "reputation button" is a nice small way for someone to say "Thank you, You helped me today".

So don't be so quick to dismiss that silly little button, it is important to many people in this forum

[She Cat]

I understand both points of view. Some here need to feel that they are not her to make friends, but to get help. Others feel the need to be helpful. I am kind of both ways. Yes I love the bond I have with a few of the members, but I also like to help. NOW I wish I had the courage to look within and FIX myself. Forgiveness of myself would be nice....

Anyway, I do understand both sides of the issue. It comes down to what is more important for each member.......Personal choice again.....

[cherryblossom]

I have to be totally honest and say that I never taken any notice to those little green buttons. I didn't even realise what they where until I read this post and did a bit of poking around the forum.

I can understand both sides too. I understand how members would want to feel they are helping others. Personally, I don't feel wise enough to 'help' others: maybe that's why I've never noticed the rep thing before. So, in that respect, I'm not interested in my own rep points.

However, lots of members here have helped me, and I've never clicked the button. But, now that I'm aware of it, this is something I'll consider in the future.

Thanks for bringing this feature to my attention. I don't think there is any need to apologise though. It may sound selfish, but I guess we all do what we can to survive. Sometimes that is giving, sometimes it is taking. I hope that some day things will improve for me, so that I can do more giving and less taking... but in the mean time, I'll listen to any advice that is offered!

[pandora]

Wow.....I didn't think this would cause such a discussion.

I understand both positions and in my case I am very alone and isolated and feeling like I helped someone and actually telling them why or just acknowledging REALLY helps me.....in return the times that i have felt supported I might not be here without this forum. Sorry if i offended anyone. I also feel like sometimes with my nursing background..I really am making a positive difference. Not working and not getting positive feedback has really taken my self esteem and I am still trying to find it. So I guess it is all about different people and different personalities.In my case this was helpful....but everyone lives very different lives.

[Grama-Herc]

Pandora

We are so similar in our feeling, emotions and circumstances that it is frightening. I totally get the needed to feel like you have some how, in some way helped some one.

For a long time all I did here was take. I remember the feeling the 1st time someone
said thank you to me for something I had said. To know I had actually helped some one, even if it was just a smile I caused.

It is actually healing to know you helped some one. It is a validation that you do indeed exist! ! !

Sometime back I got into a huge "todo" here about the same subject. In fact, it caused quite a stir. I, like you, had no idea it would cause such a stir. But, you know me-----I love to stir the pot.

Yes people a here to heal. But isn't interaction with others part of that? But I am rambling so anyway, that's my 2 cents

[tude]

Grama-Herc,

Thank you for clearly making me aware how important it is for you and others to feel helpful to people. I did not realize how much influence one's 'reputation' has on someone's self-esteem.

Although I will not give any value to the green dots, I wanted to tell you that I can acknowledge that others do place value in them.

tude

[pandora]

Thank you grama Herc......and no harm done Tude.