Ok - It Cannot Get Any Worse!

[pandora]

I am trying to breathe.......

I just went to clean the school hampster cage so my son can take it in clean and BOTH HAMPSTERS ARE DEAD!!!!!....Geez.....he is going to be so upset. His hampster is still alive but in another cage. OK....we have been through dead hampsters before but right now?????

Shit! I just know how upset this is going to make an already on edge little boy.....this is the straw, now I am crying. Last time..we have had two die and I am going to gross out everyone reading this. I actually had dead hampsters in my freezer (wrapped up secure) but he would NOT let me get rid of them (kids with aspergers/autism) already have a hard time dealing with change. I finally told him that i took them to the cemetary and buried them over my Dad and that they were safe and with their "grandfather" he just mentioned it like one day last week when we could see the ground now...snow melting and was demanding that i go and dig them backup. UUUGGGHHHH Geez!!!!! NOW!!!!!! I know it doesn't sound like a great big deal but when you rely heavily on your pets as my son talks to his hampsters and the cats...i always tell him...they love you best because my cats love him they have taught him to be gentle and they calm him. On the new game he started today he listed his family as...he and I and then his pets and he said they were the most important thing to him.:crazy:

And I have to tell the teacher that they died....i just called the cab and the school....morning is just not going to happen......as soon as he finds out...UUUGGGHHH...I can picture his poor little tears and then he is going to freak right out because the cage should have probably been changed...they are also almost two though but he is going to have a rough time. What a day or a way to start this week. Well...it has to go up from here, it is going to be a very long day and still can't shut my brain off long enough to rest...I feel sick.

[She Cat]

Pand....

It does have to get better at sometime.......Heres to hoping that your luck starts to change today......Hugs...

[Cindy]

See, when you think you got it rough, someone else has it worse. OMG Pandora, I'm so sorry you are starting your week with this added grief. What a mess. I couldn't begin to sort out what to do first. One thought, Maybe you and your son could make a kind of grave marker for the gerbils, both the ones near their "grandfather" and the school ones. You could also maybe get some new ones, but have you thought of fish? (ha,ha) Could you write a prayer for the gerbils new place in heaven. There is a poem my vets always send to me when I've lost a pet, It's about crossing the bridge into heaven and our pets meet us on the bridge waiting for us. I'll look for it, but maybe you could get it on the internet if I don't find it. Try - pet grieving bridge heaven? they may get it. I won't be back on until late tonight or tomorrow but meanwhile I'll see if I can locate it in the clutter.

[pandora]

Thank you!!! We actually did a prayer...but I would like to see the one you have. We had them die before I still haven't gotten the courage to tell him. My son is on his 4th hampster...already had fish too...YUCK!!!! What a way to start the week.

[Grama-Herc]

The poem/prayer that Cindy is referring to is called the "Rainbow Bridge". I'll get the site for you

[Grama-Herc]

Just type in the title and the first site you see is it. There is even a site that has set it to music.

I don't know how much your son can understand, but this may help. It is a beautiful poem/prayer Try it.

Good luck. I am so sorry this is going on in your life. Give the kid a hug and a big kiss from Hercules. Hey, you can show him the pic of the cat that sent the kiss to him ! !

[Lucky Laser]

:Hug_emoticon: I am so sorry to hear about the hamsters, and on top of everything else... I will pray that things will only get better from here.

[cherryblossom]

I'm so sorry about what has happened - on top of everything else.
You sure have too much going on. I'm sending positive vibes that things will get better for you. You are in my thoughts :Hug_emoticon:

[2quilt]

my hamsters never lived more than 2 years. Small creatures just don't live long. Maybe when he gets moved to the new place, he can choose a new hamster. I am so sorry that you have more than you did yesterday to worry about. You have to catch a break here soon.

[pandora]

No breaks yet....roommate is shutting power off sat....wonderful..I have to wait until the 16th for my next check...suggested that I go into a shelter today...like WTF....i don't want to help anyone ever again........i asked my cousin if we could come and stay with her....of course she said yes.....what a bloody mess.

[She Cat]

I just can't believe that she is having the utilities shut off after everything yu two have been through. I know this has shaken your world and really tested your trust in people, but please don't shut the entire world out because of one person.

There are still some good people in the world, willing to help. I know it's hard to want to find them, but they do exist.

So if you have to go to your cousins. You have too. Take the help for now.

[pandora]

I have NO choice.....I can't put my son and I in a shelter.....it would be way too much for him to handle. I just feel numb!!!!!!

[Nicolette]

There is nothing wrong with taking help Pandora and I would hate for you to have to go into a shelter. Please know we are thinking of you. :Hug_emoticon:

[pandora]

Thanx Nicolette...thank you.....yes things are bad right now..I am trying to take it one day at a time...left a note for my roommate to see when she is pulling the utilities but she hasn't gotten back to me yet. i could see if we were fighting or had had harsh words but we have not..life..it is not always as it seems. i feel so incredibly used and taken advantage of....it just makes me feel so sick.

[Murphy's Law]

hugs are being sent your way. it certainly seems like when it rains it poors.

[pandora]

Exactly...it is all how you allow it to take over or NOT take over. I KNOW I need to just move forward, if that means one minute, hour, day at a time than I guess that is what iam doing. UUUUGGGGHHHH



Not saying that I will never understand why some people are given a bed of roses and others just keep rolling over onto the biggest thorn in the bunch!!!!!