I am So Damn Pissed Off Right Now - Venting

[pandora]

I called the doctors office today and spoke with and left a a message with the bitch who calls herself a nurse with no compassion.

I am having needles tomorrow. I now have stairs. i had to take the place I took due to the personal circumstances...I am just too tired to get into right now.

I am afraid that I am not going to make it to the toilet and the stairs and having the needles that decrease my already impaired mobility...with IBS and frequent urination...I called and in my thoughts ever I never thought I would need a commode chair. I called to have them order me one. I worked for a doctor before..I have worked homecare. F ck.....I am so pissed right now at this whole situation that seems like a nightmare that will not end.

Anyway...she calls me back and proceeds to say....commode chairs are for old, elderly people that can't get around..so i reply OH...not for a young person with a spinal cord injury, having a hard time getting up the stairs...she says....well then you shouldn't have taken a new place with stairs. I said excuse me...you have no idea what went on in my life the last couple of weeks......so now...I am about to have a nervous breakdown. Thank goodness my friend had just stopped by......I just said fine...she said you will have to buy one.....BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She should have her license revoked.....UUGGHHHH..I hope she ****ing gets a disorder that turns her life upside down and takes her body and mind...slowly and painfully.

My friend just went out to get me a commode...that is sad and depressing. I am 36 years old......I am crying today for such real reasons. I am so pissed off for good reason. :wall::wall::wall:

[She Cat]

Pand,

Calm down. Ok so the nurse is a witch, and she has never had to deal with PTSD or a back injury. Please don't lower yourself to her standards by wishing anything on her. What goes around, comes around, we all know that.

So is it just the nurse that has you so pissed, or is it the fact that you are going to need a commode???? If it's the commode, well you need to just adjust to it for a few days. We all have obstacles, that we need to overcome, your back injury is one that you need to accept that you will/do have limitations.

If it's the nurse, then have a chat with her superior the next time that you go in and explain how upsetting it was.

In the mean time... Go relax, we will talk later.

Hugs.....

[pandora]

Thanx She...I am just pissed at everything......I will have a talk with the doctor...me even acknowledging that I needed the commode was acceptance to this back issue.

[She Cat]

I'm glad that you are finally accepting your limitations. It will help you in the long run. I know it has to be hard doing this at your age. You are a tough lady though, and you will make it.....

[pandora]

I know......ditto back to you. My friend just dropped off the chair...UUUGGHHHHH.

[She Cat]

Well can I suggest that you go try it out for size then??? Hell you might as well, it looks like it will become a close companion for a few days.....


Hugs

[pandora]

Nasty!!!!! ha ha...I keep looking at it....reality check...this sucks but I will get through this...calmed down now but had to take ativan.

My brother is coming in the morning to take me......he is going to raz me for sure.....I need to take his words with a grain of salt. he has a big mouth but his intentions are not bad. i know my isolation and refusal to talk with him for three years have really set boundaries. It was hard to see him....he looks just like my Dad.....UUGGHHH!!!! That is a good feeling though now...positive thoughts...I actually feel comfort in allowing my family to help and just accept them as they are but they both know......no more yelling, name calling.....that helps. i allow no pyhsical violence or emotional abuse in my home from them or anyone.

[2quilt]

Pandora,
I got a medical discharge from the military at just 29, with 60% disability. I had to use a wheelchair, an electric scooter, a shower chair, leg braces, arm braces, hip brace, a TENS unit for pain control, a heating pad, hearing aids and eleven different medications. I grieved. I was of course healthy when I entered the military; you have to be healthy to get in.

That bitch was wrong to say that you have to be old to get a commode. Children get polio and some people are born with terrible disabilities. Handicaps have no age restrictions. That nurse has a common sense problem. I would talk to your doc and the office manager about her attitude!

If you need more stuff to accommodate your disability, I can tell you what I have done: estate sales. When people die or move into a rest home, they sell all kinds of nice, gently-used stuff like raised toilet seats, wheelchairs, shower chairs, etc much cheaper than even the Goodwill store. Just have to wash anything you buy with very hot water in the tub, and then pour rubbing alcohol on it too--imagine the person who owned it before you had Ebola or some other disease you don't want. Plastic doesn't hold germs, but I am extra careful.

I got my raised toilet seat for $3.00 at a yard sale thrown at a big rest home. I got a walker for $5.00 at a yardsale. My sphincter is too tight to pay retain for that stuff. And once I finish paying my yearly deductible, I go get expensive things with a prescription: TENS unit, custom braces, wheelchairs, handles that help me button clothes, special knives and sissors for arthritis hands, etc.

I feel angry for you, Pandora.

[Cecilia]

Pandora and 2quilt:

Physical limitations can be quite frustrating; and not feeling well physically can just be another stressor. Take very good care of yourself and relax every chance you get. Hope you both start feeling better soon.

Cecilia

[Seeking_Nirvana]

I can relate to the issue with the nurse. Every month when I call for my prescription the nurse gives me a hard time or says she didn't get my message.

Nurses with power trips really gets me going. I'm sorry you have to deal with this too. I don't have any advise except try to understand that she is trying to preform a very stressful job.

Best wishes and hope you feel better!
Tammy

[Grama-Herc]

Now this solution will not help you know, But in the future it may.

Need to have the chair around for occasional use, but don't want to look at it or have others see it? Go geta chair cover made for those cheap outdoor white plastic chairs
Try to find one that isn't to ugly, cover the commonde and put a pillow on it. Instant extra seating for your next party .

I hope you don't think I am making lite of your issues, Just trying to help. It worked for mother once when she was sick

[pandora]

Thanx everyone and Herc..that is a great idea ( I was already thinking about it) ha ha..great minds think alike.

This NURSE ( she ahouldn't be able to sign R.N. beside her name has a cushy job in a doctors office and doesn't want to go out of her way to check things out....BITCH...she still pisses me right off......then i pick up my meds and I already explained to her how the decrease in the dosage was to be and that I have a hard time getting around...she orders enough until Monday. I have never been anything but nice to her!

You are right She I shouldn't want bad things to happen....it just really makes me angry when nurses are like that......I was NEVER anything lie that..always went the extra mile......always.

[captrn1]

Pandora,

reality sucks. Just know that there are some of us nurses out here that still go several extra miles to take care of our patient and will stand up to any doctor.

take care of yourself and deal with it a little bit.....1 hour....1/2 day....at a time.

my thoughts are with you.

[pandora]

Thank you Captain one......

take care.

[pandora]

I mean captrn1.

[pandora]

I think my anger is really coming out when she is not doing the job she is performing to the best of her ability....I know........ I would have found one somewhere, for any of my patients.....today feels like i just need to take it slow...I can't hold a thought enough to move forward right now. i just need to recoup from the last couple of months and just move forward.

I am...I am going to......my brother and sister in law work alot, full time no kids, just two dogs) during the week....I now have a pool, sauna and hot tub to use..i prefer when they are working but now I can go whenvever. It was hard to see my brother today....three years...that is a long time. I realiy missed him and he was nice to me today....my Mom tried but I could still feel the anger and dissapointment and that ......well I wanted to leave but I thought.......breathe, you can do this...I did it.....

My son and i spent some time in the hot tub...by the time a came back in ( half hour total) my Mom was gone. My sister in law was very nice......we have NEVER had negative words......I stayed away because of my brothers mouth, not her. i think I might need to either write this out.....maybe have all you guys give an opinion......last time I wrote a heart felt note and sent it....I pissed off....a lot of people....sooooo, totally not my intentions...sorry, rabling.

Anyone have any advice.......i stopped talking to my sister in law ( she really is a nice person...I feel she is abused to a certain degree too) from my brother....they have been together 15 years, we all lived together, a couple of times. Wnen I stopped talking to my brother...it just came along with it because I didn't want to cause waves in their relationship. She is acting like nothing ever happened but I feel a sick feeling......Should I write something to her?

[Grama-Herc]

Get a card, print out the above letter and smile. I believe you sister in law would benefit from reading what you wrote about her and seeing how you feel, uncensored!
Everybody needs an ally--sounds like she is yours.

Invite her back into your life and enjoy her as a friend. She obviously has character
since she still acts to you as before regardless of your brother. Let her worry about that, you enjoy her friendship

There, I will now get down off my soap box

[pandora]

Thanx Gramma Herc.....

[baileysemt]

2quilt, what a great idea, picking that stuff up at estate sales. Of course! ... brilliant idea!!

pandora, I hope you have at least taken this commode chair down a notch or two by giving it a funny name... 'pooper chair' comes to mind (in light of how my best friend's kids always thought 'pooper' was the funniest word ever created -- ever!! -- imagine 3, 4 and 5 year olds giggling *hysterically* at the thought of the word, LOL) ... but I am sure you can think up something much more creative. :smile:

I think you are lucky to be able to have such tools to help you deal with your injury. Screw that nurse -- she doesn't know what she's talking about!

And I think you are incredibly strong to live with the pain and limitations it presents every day. I don't think I am anywhere near as strong as you are.

And I think you are incredibly strong for being able to share your feelings with us. There are a lot of people who can't even look themselves in the mirror, let alone own up to their honest feelings.

Keep your chin up :thumbs-up and I hope you will get a laugh out of my suggestion for the creative name for the chair, I am only trying to give you something to smile about. :)

Bailey

[pandora]

Thanx Bailey!!!!

[Beli Mawr]

Does everyone ever get the feeling, I did until recently, that the minute you need or want something or get anxious, everyone automatically decides not to give it to you? After my benzos, I feel much better, and people have been really friendly all of a sudden. Do you think people read too much in, and give you trouble? I mean, if you are afraid and upset, why should that matter when you ask for something you have a verifiable medical need for?

They should pass out pamphlets in waiting rooms to let you know the mental and emotional states you need to be in when you request something when you really do need it. People who are essentially emotionally retarded are helpless otherwise. I didn't understand there were different levels of communication I was missing until I got the meds first. now I do.