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Just the general and not-so-general ramblings of one No-Twitch-Tabitha.
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Posted 16-04-2008 at 04:19 AM by No-Twitch-Tabitha
I was on a health-related hiatus. Long story short, "female problems" and surgery for said problems. I am recovering.

However, I'm merely using this entry to shout "Take me now, Lord!"

You see, my low will to live and my broken heart have struck again. And it's hurting so bad I can't really take much more.

I hate this.

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I hope your surgery went well, and that the hospital staff took good care of you and controlled your pain.

What else is going on to make you feel so bad?
Posted 16-04-2008 at 09:06 AM by 2quilt 2quilt is offline
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Oh, the surgery went just fine, and I couldn't have asked for better care at the hospital and by the staff. They were the best.

I've whined about this before, but I am baffled as to what to do about it. I have this "hole in my heart" that hurts. A lot. It's always there in the back of my consciousness, but every so often it hurts enough to make me pay attention to it. The pain just gets so bad some days that I wish I were dead.

I'm not suicidal, that is, I don't want to die by my own hand. I don't feel the urgency to take myself off the planet or anything. I just have a low will to live. If someone were to put a gun to my head, I would just ask 'em to shoot me and get it over with.

Feelings. I'm not good with them. I don't like feeling them. I don't like acknowledging them. They're irrational, they're...*icky*.
Posted 19-04-2008 at 02:04 AM by No-Twitch-Tabitha No-Twitch-Tabitha is offline
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You are not whining, honey! Your feelings are yours and very real!
Posted 20-04-2008 at 07:25 PM by 2quilt 2quilt is offline
 
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