Hi Jennn,
Look, I am not a person who is backwards in coming forwards. You don't know the half of the situation to be honest, and if you want to stickup for Joanna, that is fine. The facts are, she is pissed off at me. That is not childish, that is honest. I pissed her off by editing her when posting whilst drunk, her admitting she was drunk whilst posting, posting insulting and derogatory things to people about their pasts, and the list goes on... generally all because of alcohol.
I am not here to stuff about with people Jennn, I am here to be honest. I can give it, and I can take it. As per your remarks above about editing your post, no... I will not, as that is not the person I am. Everyone deserves the right to have their opinion, providing it fits within the stated guidelines of this forum.
Honestly, if the forum wasn't moderated as it is, I would have people posting nasty things about others all over the place, in spite, in anger, in rage, whilst drunk, stoned or drugged. That is the nature of PTSD... and using this forum comes with rules. I own it, but the members actually set the rules. The buck stops with me, thus I do not have the opportunity to pussy foot around with people who come here to make others suffering worse, instead of better.
Joanna has done some very good things here, but also some less than acceptable things also. The less than acceptable where mounting up at a rapid rate. See, I could have deleted her original post, but again, I don't do it.... so please be careful about who's character your judgeing here.
I do not pretend to be perfect, nor do I pretend to always make good decisions, but I am honest about it, and I am honest with all members of this forum. The forum comes with rules, and regardless whether a member has made one post, or a thousand posts, the same rules apply and the same things will happen if people post obscenities when drunk, rudeness by being drunk, poking fun at other sufferers past because your drunk and don't use commonsense, courtesy or manners towards others.
I call a spade a spade Jennn, and make no secret off it. I think maybe you should get all the facts before making assumptions about me. I have my good days, I have my bad, but I am honest about it atleast. I know if I stuffup to apologise and say sorry, even if I do it daily, I still know if I have done wrong.
I haven't done wrong here, except be honest about what is going on. I have been very tolerant of Joanna's postings, very tolerant to say the least. The door is always open for Joanna when Joanna is ready to help herself. Joanna is not ready to help herself at present, thus I will not beat around the bush about it.
Look through this forum, and you will see plenty of times when I have stuffed up, been out of line and so forth, and simply apologised for my own stupidity. Most people know it... some don't. Joanna even said to me that she would not apologise again for posting here when drunk, especially posting derogatory remarks about another members past... I say bite my arse in those situations. A person knows they did wrong, but won't take responsibility for their own actions. Not my cup of tea.
If someone wants to commit suicide, it has nothing to do with me. I am not responsible for other peoples actions, nor is any other member here responsible. If someone comes here, reads something, then goes and blows their head off, there is nothing anyone here could have done about it, nor is it anothers fault. That person needed more help than what could be provided here. I know, why don't we turn the entire Internet off, because someone might see something, read something or participate in something, then go kill themselves? Not realistic, not even close. |