Well here we are again, end of a year. Last year I was so hopeful that by this time I would be feeling better and would have worked through my problems. Instead what do I get? More memories, flashbacks, nightmares. I ask myself when does it stop? I am not feeling very hopeful this year at all. I face another year of T, which I might be able to afford and sadness. Not sure I can take it. I really thought this year I would get over this, feeling stuck I guess in my recovery.

CL, you cannot put a timeline on when it will feel better, and remember the ups come with the downs. You are putting added stress on yourself just by saying or thinking I will be better by a set time. Don't do that, just take it a day at a time. You will get to a better place.

CL, there is a vast difference between healing with a therapist, and really healing. What you have done with a therapist already, is nothing compared to what you need to do in order to heal. Your scratching at surfaces, not digging deep. If you dug really deep, you would be a total mess right now, just like some others you hear here that do so, and they feel what pain is all about.

You have a choice, you can stop stuffing about and really get into smacking the crap out of your trauma head on, or you can continue throwing money away to a therapist to scratch away at you for another year, with little to no results by 2008. It is a choice, and you control that choice.

You see, you will put up with it anyway, because I certainly don't see you as suicidal at the moment, which means its just depression talking. When you get to a choice in your life, heal or die, then you might realise that you have a lot of hard work ahead of you, and there is only one way through it... head on. When your ready to do it CL, there is more than enough off us here now to help you to it.

How about a 2007 new years resolution, stop stuffing about and grab your trauma by the horns and kick the hell out of it? That is what I would really love to see from you, because it means by the end of 2007 your going to be a completely different person, a new you... the way your going, there is going to be no change. Harsh, but honest.

i once felt the same, cl, also at the one year mark, i just finally decided i was going to get better if it takes 10yrs or whatever, what is the alternative? i got so tired of being miserable and making my husband miserable worrying, and anthony, um...encouraged me to make up my mind to get better, and do it. sounds too simple? i know, but i really think it is working. hang in there, you can't win by surrender, you have to fight.
cathy

I don't really know what I can sasy other thatn encourage you to hang on in. I take herbs (St John's Wort & liqurice amongst others) to stave off the depression and I find it does work.

One thing I learnt from my therapist, depression is part of PTSD, and PTSD is there ad infanitum, it's just a case of working each day at a time, and each hour at a time and each minute at a time.

Good wishes and peace to you.

Istari

Hello Lass.
Just keep in there lass. You have come this far, just keep yourself on the go. Treat everyday as if you are going to have a good day. Everyday say to yourself, I've done it another day without any problems.
Try relaxation or something that you really enjoy, maybe going for a coffee with friends or a night at the Pub with your friends as well.
We are all in the same position as you are my friend.
Good Luck this year.
Cheers
Scott

Not Sure I Can Take Another Year of PTSD and Depression

i know exactly what u mean...

My short answer; if everyone pushed themselves hard this year, pulled themselves apart leaving nothing unturned, there would not be this discussion with any person currently her at the end of 2007. The only thing said, would be all the positives each and every person has found from healing themselves, looking forward to all the great things they now see.