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Old 17-03-2007, 02:12 AM
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Default He Won - Yet I Caused The Breakup

he won, he said if he couldn't be with me, he would make sure no else would be with me. i left him after many years. now i cant trust any man. i can be intimate with any man. i broke up with my current bf because of this. would get so triggered when he got angry or try to get close to me. i broke his heart when i left him. the worse thing is i love him, but my mind and body would not let him get close. so had to leave. was hard to explain to him all the time why i was shaking or get scared over argument.
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i give up
i will be alone forever
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Old 17-03-2007, 02:33 AM
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canucklady,

Don't let him make you feel like a victim.
You won when you left him!

About your feelings about being alone forever... as unlikely as that is... what would be so bad about it?
I constantly struggle right now with my boyfriend of 9 years, as my fears and lack of interest make intimate moments harder than they should be.
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hang in there, there are some out there that can be supportive and understanding. i pray that you find one, if that's what you want.
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Old 03-04-2007, 08:24 AM
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as horrible as a breakup is, it is also a new start. my marriage is in bigtime trouble and i don't know if i'll be able to save it or not. i have caused so much trouble this year with this weird behavior of mine, that the control over my life has been significantly reduced. I know if we break up it will be horribly traumatic; but another part of me thinks that it will be a chance to find out who i really am, all by myself.

I don't think I've ever really been all my own person, ever. Always parents around telling me how to be; husband there with his own agenda I end up following, etc.

Hang in there. really.
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