I'm So Frustrated Right Now! Doesn't anybody get it? I try to manage my triggers and not react outwardly but at the same time I try to inform others about actions and their impacts. At work right now I share a classroom with someone who is aggressive both verbally and by actions creating havoc with both students and myself. I have been documenting everything since the beginning of the school year. The past four weeks I have informed administrators "I'm done!" do something. I have left work crying 3 days a week.
This week I took two mental health days - in order to return it took 2 advil, pepto bismal, and two valium. I was still in tears by 11:30 with the building administrator. I now am taking two more days off.
My psychologists says atleast my actions reflect my words and it will not allow the administration to continue putting of
their actions. I am one of the most passionate and dedicated teachers in the building and they know it. Many colleagues have emotionally supported me.
Then I try to reach my psychiatrist for med renewels and something to calm my hypervigelance explaining I'm in a bad place - He remarks "what else is new". I imploded! I tried to go to another psychiatrist - Jan 20 is the first available appt.
What's wrong with this picture, I'm drowning and no one seems to be trying to help me. I do not cry wolf. I rarely ask for help (self neglect and stubborn). I do let myself go until it all crashes down around me as it is right now.
I've been doing Suduko puzzles all morning just to distract myself because I can't do anything else. It really is crappy when you are being put aside until you are in crisis and then there isn't even a quick response when you need it.
Any suggestions on how to vent my frustrations or take action to get my needs taken care of? |