WOW what a great month I was asked if I would take My room mates daughter to something call the "Freakers Ball" I at first didnt think it would be a good idea because I dont like large crowds or new places but then I thoiught what the hell I'll wear a custom and no one will know that it's Me. Best custom wins a 1000 in cash. Seven bands rocked the night then afterwards they had "Hell in the Sky" fire works show.
I got dressed up and wow I had a blast. People were asking if they could take Our pictures, of course we said yes. People asked Me how or where I got the mask when I told them I made it in My garage they gave Me pats on the back and said that it was awesome.

My mask is form fittting which after wearing it a long time it gets hot and makes My head hurt.

I noted then when I wore the mask I was fun loving, joval, laughing and joking as well as rocking out. But when I took it off to cool My head down I would begin to get an anxity attack. I would put the mask back on and I was ready to rock more, to bad Halloween only comes once a year.

I cant wait til next Halloween

It wasnt to bad I had some family and friends over. We ate like horses, then at more. God I love to eat good food good family, good friends, I am truly thankful.

on the 18th of Dec My wife and child flew out to Cali to spend both X-mas and new years out there. I am cool with that cause My daughter is the youngest and she should see her grand parents before they kick off.

A few days before they took off We found out that My wifes mom wasnt in the best of health and was going to have to start dialisus.

My sister was going to be comming out to visit so I would have family with Me but she got sick and couldnt make it. what a downer. I muddled along did some stuff that I dont recall, I ate somewhere. it wasnt the same without My family but I still tried to make the best of it.

I was at work when the new year turned. ok I know some people do have to work, so once more I went though the motions of being happy about a new year.

about a week after new years I got fired. you see I cant live in a 600 a month apt so I had to move. I had it all set up that on Sat Myself and some friends would get My stuff and put it in storage. Wrong work had other ideas they wanted Me to work on that day so I told My boss " since I have this stuff planned and you want Me to work, is management going to come over on Sunday and help Me move?" to which His reply was " We dont owe you a darn thing, so no" I then said " Fine I'll just take monday off and do it" of course they didnt like the sound of that and told Me " If your not here on Sat or monday your fired." I said "ok I'll be here on both days" I was then sent back to work. about 10 or 20 minutes later I was told that I was fired. WHEW I didnt have to deal with those fools any more yeahhhhhhhhhhh!!!:clap:

I got fired so I got a letter from My doctor saying that I was unhireable I was heading over to the VVA ( they help Me write My letter to the VA for My PTSD) and I rear ended another car. I paid 800 for My van the book says it's only worth 750 so I figure that it's totaled. on the 25 of FEB I go before a judge on this accident.

so No wife and child , no job, no van to drive . the best thing right now is that I am alive and for that I am thankful.

Thats it mate.... we can lose a lot, but if we are alive then there is hope to change, hope to move in a different direction, hope to become the person we may believe we lost once before trauma.... or the person we believe we want to be.