I can be doing something and time just flies and at other times it goes so slowly. Also, I often can't remember what I did yesterday for example but when I can remember I cant remember what order I did things in. I often think I did an activity in the afternoon but I actually did it in the morning or vice versa. When I compare two activities that i did on the same day and sometimes on different days I often confuse which one came first.

I began feeling as though I wasn't sure where I was at times, after years of trauma during childhood. I thought it would get better. It got to where I could not realize the age of my family members. I kept thinking they were the same age as they were back in the days of the trauma. It took me a very long time to force myself to remember their current ages. I am able to do that now, but by now it has progressed to where I can't seem to mentally keep track of time. An hour could seem like ten minutes, so I was on warning at work, several times and feeling depressed and suicidal (better now) because it wasn't my fault that I couldn't remember..and once again, I was in a situation where I was about to be denied what I needed, because of something that wasn't my fault. I have never sought any therapy for this. I couldn't make myself seek out help. However, I think I have finally begun to mentally process a time frame again. I check the clock often, to remind myself that time still goes by, even though I often feel as if I'm dreaming. It's not easy. Does anyone have a method that might work better? ..Or even just a particular way of thinking? My boyfriend thinks I'm a huge lazy-ass or a very skilled procrastinator (LOL), but unfortunately, it's the result of feeling as if I'm only dreaming, and not real. As if there is no hurry, because it is only a dream. It's a very bad habit of mine. I can't get anything accomplished at home. Any tips guys?
I never have spoken to anyone about this stuff before.
I'm a little shaky about it, but I guess it can't hurt.

X,
Tara