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Originally Posted by hercules3of4  Good morning Sir Jack I always wanted the kind of life every little girl dreamed of. A husband, kids and a nice home and happiness. Guess you could say the kind of life you saw on TV in the 50's and 60's. |
But was it the real 50s & 60s, or just that of Hollywood?
What is it specifically about that time period, no matter if it's Hollywood or real life, that you wanted?
Sit down and mellow out. I like listening to some Jefferson Airplane, to mellow out. And the start writing. Write these answers out. You will surprise yourself.
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 My mom says my childhood was full of stress, stress and more stress. She says I had a father who treated me like shit and was very cold and unloving me. Never found my happy ever after married life. |
I'm sorry to hear that. No one deserves to be abused.
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 never had a place to call my own and my kid will have nothing to do with me. My life was full of some really bad choices which have lead me to my current life |
What do you mean a place to call your own?
Rent?
Own?
Your own private refuge?
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 It was only late in life when the fog of drugs and drinking cleared that I found my true calling. Unfortunately due to my limited education and the amount of education needed to fulfill my dream, it ain't gonna happen! ! ! |
Sorry to hear that it took drugs to find yourself. But I really do want you to tell me more about your dream and why it won't happen.
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 All that sounds a bit on the morose side but it is actually a real,true, exact and matter of fact description of my life. I have, however, been given a second chance so I can repair the damage I did to my relationship with my Mother. The most important part is I am now able to make up for the misery I put my mother through over the years. She is a good woman and deserves to be treated with respect which I am now doing. |
Morose? Reality can be harsh, dear. I'm glad things are going well with your mother. Amazing what peace can bring, isn't it?
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 I always wondered what my purpose in life was. Why was I born. I felt many times that I was wasting my life, and I was--back when! I don't worry about any of this anymore because I now know! My mother deserves to be happy, safe and secure for the first time in her life and now she is! She is no longer alone and hell I AM NO LONGER ALONE EITHER!!!!!!!!! |
Who needs a purpose? Honestly, until Hollywood started making movies, no one carried about a "purpose". You're born, you live, you die- such is life. Live it for yourself. Want a purpose? MAKE a purpose! Who says you can't? I have. My goal in life is to provide whatever services I can to the volunteer arena. I have done a lot and in the past two years my volunteer services meant a lot. The supervisor thanked me telling me I saved the USFS $32,000+ dollars in the first year alone. Had a professional been hired, they would have charged $65,000 and the quality of labor would be 1/2 at best. Now I have that office wanting to renew my contract, and two additional districts as well.
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Originally Posted by hercules3of4 Keep talking to me because you are causing me to think in areas I have not visited in a VERY LONG time and I like it. You are good therapy for me and I look forward to you input |
I'll keep talking, though my replies my not be right away.
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