thank all of you for your replies, and to have been so sincere, too. thank you becvan: i am from italy and my worries about my therapist are that, though she is specialized in ptsd, she could have still few knowledge, compared, for example, to the knowledge and the experience of the american ones. i will follow your suggest and i will open myself the more i can.
i thought too that the therapy doesn't resolve everything.
more, by your tellings, what i can feel is that we can understand each other, and for the first time in my whole life i feel that someone can understand me!!!! yuhu!!!! but, at the same time, i feel that each of us has a pain of his own, this absurd and diabolic loss of memory, like a kind of virus, has taken us in a specific way, different one from another, relating to one's feeling, personality and personal history...
so, all we can do, is sharing feelings, experiences and emotions, giving courage to the others, struggling to feel better.
i would like to embrace all of you!!!
at the moment i am at the 25% of my mental efficiency. but, can you note that i am writing in english better than the first time i wrote here? the practice is helping me to remember...
for 11 years i have been imaginating nothing, i have been dreaming nothing (in the night), whereas i used to have incredible long complicated and funny dreams!..i have been having no idaes, no thoughts.. only fog, darkness, confusion.. my mind has been switched off, this is the right word. now, switch it on is not so easy.. recover the memories is not sufficient.. it's a long, hard, painful and complicated work. but i will do it.
thank you, thank you again. kisses..
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