Hi, I'm a new member here. I have had PTSD since childhood and am now in my early 40's. I grew up in a very chaotic enviornment filled with drug/alcohol abuse, physical illness and domestic violence. I was the youngest child in the family with a several years distance between me and my siblings. This made me vulnerable to allot of different kinds of abuse and neglect.

Dispite all of that I've been a "successful" person on the outside. Even when I was married to my very abusive first husband, I was able to fool allot of people When I finally fled that marriage with our child, I believe i escaped with my life by the skin of my teeth

The reason I'm here is because I can't function anymore. I'm fearful all of the time. I carry around this smoldering anger towards the people who hurt me. I am easily triggered by other people so I do all I can to avoid any contact with other people aside from talking about the weather. I am remarried and have a wonderful husband and child who are very supportive. I desperately want to resolve this stuff for myself and for them.

I have been in regular counseling for over 5 years and take some medication. Both have been helpful but i'm still probably only 50% of the person I could be.

Thanks for listening

Hi paincontainer,

Welcome to the forum.

Welcome paincontainer, glad to have you here!

Paincontainer
Welcome
You will find alot of help in this forum. Just ask!
sunnydaze

Hi paincontainer,

welcome here. I am glad that you found us, as this site can be an enormous source of support and understanding. Please feel free to be yourself and go at your own pace.

Take care...