I called the doctors office today and spoke with and left a a message with the bitch who calls herself a nurse with no compassion.

I am having needles tomorrow. I now have stairs. i had to take the place I took due to the personal circumstances...I am just too tired to get into right now.

I am afraid that I am not going to make it to the toilet and the stairs and having the needles that decrease my already impaired mobility...with IBS and frequent urination...I called and in my thoughts ever I never thought I would need a commode chair. I called to have them order me one. I worked for a doctor before..I have worked homecare. F ck.....I am so pissed right now at this whole situation that seems like a nightmare that will not end.

Anyway...she calls me back and proceeds to say....commode chairs are for old, elderly people that can't get around..so i reply OH...not for a young person with a spinal cord injury, having a hard time getting up the stairs...she says....well then you shouldn't have taken a new place with stairs. I said excuse me...you have no idea what went on in my life the last couple of weeks......so now...I am about to have a nervous breakdown. Thank goodness my friend had just stopped by......I just said fine...she said you will have to buy one.....BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She should have her license revoked.....UUGGHHHH..I hope she ****ing gets a disorder that turns her life upside down and takes her body and mind...slowly and painfully.

My friend just went out to get me a commode...that is sad and depressing. I am 36 years old......I am crying today for such real reasons. I am so pissed off for good reason.

Pand,

Calm down. Ok so the nurse is a witch, and she has never had to deal with PTSD or a back injury. Please don't lower yourself to her standards by wishing anything on her. What goes around, comes around, we all know that.

So is it just the nurse that has you so pissed, or is it the fact that you are going to need a commode???? If it's the commode, well you need to just adjust to it for a few days. We all have obstacles, that we need to overcome, your back injury is one that you need to accept that you will/do have limitations.

If it's the nurse, then have a chat with her superior the next time that you go in and explain how upsetting it was.

In the mean time... Go relax, we will talk later.

Hugs.....

Thanx She...I am just pissed at everything......I will have a talk with the doctor...me even acknowledging that I needed the commode was acceptance to this back issue.

I'm glad that you are finally accepting your limitations. It will help you in the long run. I know it has to be hard doing this at your age. You are a tough lady though, and you will make it.....

I know......ditto back to you. My friend just dropped off the chair...UUUGGHHHHH.

Well can I suggest that you go try it out for size then??? Hell you might as well, it looks like it will become a close companion for a few days.....


Hugs

Nasty!!!!! ha ha...I keep looking at it....reality check...this sucks but I will get through this...calmed down now but had to take ativan.

My brother is coming in the morning to take me......he is going to raz me for sure.....I need to take his words with a grain of salt. he has a big mouth but his intentions are not bad. i know my isolation and refusal to talk with him for three years have really set boundaries. It was hard to see him....he looks just like my Dad.....UUGGHHH!!!! That is a good feeling though now...positive thoughts...I actually feel comfort in allowing my family to help and just accept them as they are but they both know......no more yelling, name calling.....that helps. i allow no pyhsical violence or emotional abuse in my home from them or anyone.

Pandora,
I got a medical discharge from the military at just 29, with 60% disability. I had to use a wheelchair, an electric scooter, a shower chair, leg braces, arm braces, hip brace, a TENS unit for pain control, a heating pad, hearing aids and eleven different medications. I grieved. I was of course healthy when I entered the military; you have to be healthy to get in.

That bitch was wrong to say that you have to be old to get a commode. Children get polio and some people are born with terrible disabilities. Handicaps have no age restrictions. That nurse has a common sense problem. I would talk to your doc and the office manager about her attitude!

If you need more stuff to accommodate your disability, I can tell you what I have done: estate sales. When people die or move into a rest home, they sell all kinds of nice, gently-used stuff like raised toilet seats, wheelchairs, shower chairs, etc much cheaper than even the Goodwill store. Just have to wash anything you buy with very hot water in the tub, and then pour rubbing alcohol on it too--imagine the person who owned it before you had Ebola or some other disease you don't want. Plastic doesn't hold germs, but I am extra careful.

I got my raised toilet seat for $3.00 at a yard sale thrown at a big rest home. I got a walker for $5.00 at a yardsale. My sphincter is too tight to pay retain for that stuff. And once I finish paying my yearly deductible, I go get expensive things with a prescription: TENS unit, custom braces, wheelchairs, handles that help me button clothes, special knives and sissors for arthritis hands, etc.

I feel angry for you, Pandora.

Pandora and 2quilt:

Physical limitations can be quite frustrating; and not feeling well physically can just be another stressor. Take very good care of yourself and relax every chance you get. Hope you both start feeling better soon.

Cecilia

I can relate to the issue with the nurse. Every month when I call for my prescription the nurse gives me a hard time or says she didn't get my message.

Nurses with power trips really gets me going. I'm sorry you have to deal with this too. I don't have any advise except try to understand that she is trying to preform a very stressful job.

Best wishes and hope you feel better!
Tammy