:cool: Even though my right shoulder is still sore...I had to do a bit of laundry as my aide didn't show up last Friday....Just can't stand to wear certain dirty clothing items!!! So I decided to take my notebook and pen and start writing...I usually go back to my apt. while the stuff dries....but didn't do that and so it was time available to start my book....What I wrote about sure brought up some emotions with the memories....good thing that I'm going to see my psychodoc tomorrow!!!.......KEEPING THE PEACE

I went lastnight to inlaws discuss getin son enrolled in school.

Today I was up (thanks insomnia) luckily to get the boy up as he ignored his alarm and I heard him hit snooze twice. Hubs same thing. I rode with them to the town he is going to school... It is a 15 mile drive but it is better for him to have a new highschool in a new state where the principal is grandpa!

The sunrise is pretty out here... at home the sunset steals the show but out here my lil' one was going on about the orange and pink and purples... I wish I had a camera. Sure there will be plenty. It was the first time since getting here being out of my house during daylight hours. I was really wishing for my shades the little one sat on. I know why I but cheap sunglasses. Got them the day I got here to go to the doc during the day, and well she broke them already.

I was able to sit with the MIL for awhile before I had to "get out". But the FIL has a heated shed and office area he smokes his pipe in he showed me and said I did not have to sit in the cold. So it is nice when I am there I have a private heated room with a recliner I can go hide in outside that has an extensive library in it. Hubs said he used to be an English teacher.

I came home and only with some minor confusion cooked breakfast for the rest. I went in the local grocer too (not alone).

So I am getting out, going in stores and trying to learn to function outside my four walls. I did not realize I was so agoraphobic. I knew I was, but getting out, wow, it it very tiring but I am doing it.

See if we can get this morale booster working again. I had such a hard time reading a book I got for Christmas. I got to 9 pages at most. And it is Dan Brown, I loved The Da Vinci Code but I just could not get my head on straight to read this other one Angel & Demons. I forced my self to get further in and in a few days I read the whole thing. I honestly did not think I had me into read and get lost in stories any more. No concentration. But I did and it sucked me in. I saw a few spots disturbing and threw up at one point, but that is just me. It was a good read just like the other one and got my mind off most of my issues (I need a break). I think I will be getting hubs to get his other books now and try to get back to exercising my brain... Who knows maybe if I can get back into books like I used to maybe I can get into the ones that actually teach me something! A month to get 9 pages to 2-3 days knocking out 400 more. I am proud of that.

Today, I painted my toenails silver and my fingernails with strengthening stuff. It suprised me how much effort it took for me to do it. I'm tired now? LOL

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took a nap.....assertively said what I thought and felt, (no agression, passivity, demeaning myself or dissing anyone).....allowed my daugther over a new friends house for a playdate.....sat for sometime with my arm around son and watched much of a family movie. Didn't hold my husband hostage while talking to him, when he arrived at, enough is enough.

Went and got a pedicure today. That may not seem like much, but sometimes having someone else pamper you (even if it's just for a half an hour or so) can make you feel a lot better.

I went out by myself today to eat and drove alone.

You go, girl!!!!!!

Today I drove my daughter to work, and made dinner.. (ok.. I bought pizza) its Superbowl Sunday.. I felt the need to cook something.. (its a 'take & bake' thing.. technically, I AM cooking it.) :biggrin: