Well, mine is more of the week... I took my walking back up nightly I had slacked off of and now I have hubby joining me (woo hoo!).

I started back out at maybe a mile and that was as far as my back pain would let me and I was pooped. Now a week later I made it 3.5 miles. I am happy I did it but judging by how my legs are already sore I won't be holding my breath to be able to go that again for a couple days (will be fine after that), but that is my goal now, 3.5 miles a night until it is easy. Then we step up the pace at the track after that! I even ran some of it tonight.

I do plan to do upper body training though while my legs return from this jello state LOL. And I have been behaving on my diet too, PMS and chocolate ice cream is a given, but I am still keeping everything in range. Had to drop drinking alcohol as the calories are just not worth it. Though I learned tonight that eating ice cream before exercise is a bad bad idea, it almost came back up on me and I got so dizzy.

I think the best part for me is when the heart was racing after running and getting sick, short of breath, and dizzy my mind flipped the switch into panic attack mode as those are usual symptoms. I felt it so my mind said this was it and away we went. I talked out loud while I did my cooling stating "no, this is what working out feels like, remember?" "This is not a bad sensation but a good one" "This is good for me... puff puff" And I was able to pull myself out of the attack. It was too awesome! Though I did feel like a dork sounding like I was speaking to a gremlin on my shoulder or something. But it worked!

Now I need to go to bed... My thighs keep twitching. Oh yeah, I will feel this tomorrow for sure.

Hey good for you Veiled!

I came on here to type that I went to the gym tonight, even though I felt angry & wanted to stay home & feel sorry for myself.

I do some cardio, but I also like doing the weights - it makes my body feel stronger & it correlates to my mind.

This is also my 11th alcohol free day (12 is my record since beginning therapy just over 12 months ago).

Looks like we will both be feeling the effects tomorrow.

It would sound crazy if I posted this anywhere else but here... actually it still sounds crazy.

I left the house today for the first time in over 5 days.

The dog had run out of dog food. There was naught getting around it.

Honestly, for a crazy moment, I actually was looking in the fridge/freezer thinking "is there any people food I could give him just to get by tonight? Hmmmmm.... there's those frozen breakfast burritos"..... and the dog (big ole pit/boxer mix) is standing next to me at the fridge with a look on his face that says "OH HELL YES.... please and thank you on the dinner of breakfast burritos".

And I just thought this is ridiculous. To find it so excruciating to be out and about and around people.

So I actually left the house, drove to the store and got his food.

I'm feeling all proud of myself now... but I'm also wondering how the hell my life got here. Bitter-sweet bitter-sweet comedy-tragedy.

dang.

m1

a few days ago i built a new fence for a local widow..made me feel great..really fuzzy inside...sadly i was bit by a funnelwebb and that quickly destroyed me again...just cant bloody win!..at least im still breathing i suppose..

This might not be so good for me, but it tastes...oh so good! I made donuts today from refrigerated biscuits...very cheap and very naughty. I think I ate about six of them. I lost count after the second one....

That sounds very good. I made sopapillas last night and have left over dough, wonder if I could try something like that? Who am I kidding I will probably make more of the same with all the honey. I barely ate a thing yesterday so I did not feel guilty!

Supposed to make rice crispie treats with my daughter today. Have I mentioned how my diet is going LOL?

I guess this qualifies as something good - I asked for help 2x today and even used the H word (help) once and I only got a little angry at myself for doing it.

How do you make your rice crispie treats - we do the regular and add peanut butter - good but not so healthy!

We just do the butter and marshmallows. She is supposed to assist me in making a cherry pie later this week. Since I do not like cherries and my teen who eats like a horse loves them my eating plans of stay away from sweets should be safe!

This happened the other day but it still qualifies. We had a branch meeting the other morning at work and everyone was invited (AKA manditory). For refreshments my boss ordered donuts. Couldn't convince him to get bagels for less fat and better for you. But I digress.

Donuts are a particular weakness of mine. I brought my breakfast of a cup of yogurt and a banana and ate it at my desk prior to the meeting. I got past the table with the donuts without giving in. Proud of myself that I kept to good eating and not snagging 12 delicious grams of fat.

Lisa

Absolute bang up day. Not any anxiety whatsoever. Very very cool in my book. I was so excited and told hubs. He tiredly said good. I was disappointed he wasn't more excited with me as this is one of those thing that just would never happen! Bright and sunny out, cool temperatures, windows wide open... And me just kicking back and soaking all the "I feel good" feelings in. What a breath of fresh air.

I drove yesterday and got very sick. Anxiety kicking my ass all over. Today though I was over it and drove again. Two days in a row!!

Insomnia still kicking my butt for the last couple weeks so I am going to try a OTC sleeping aid. I plan to get up before sunup and hit the road with my little girl and Cookie so I really need some rest. We are going to go fishing and picnic at the state fishing lake. This will be a huge leap for me driving that far and to do something alone (no other adult). I cannot recall the last time I did that. I need to pack our gear and have liver sitting out getting ripe (going for catfish) and once that is done I am trying the sleeping aid and curling up on the computer with a movie to pass out to. Same thing as Nyquil has in it so I figure it will be fine.

Hope everyone else is doing well.