Hope the breather helped or did you dwell on it? LOL. Really hope you feel better.

You will find through trial and error what works best for you. Stitting on it won't for the exact reason you just stated.

And find a doc you are happy with no matter how many you go through. Your brain may be altered but does not mean we cannot find away around it to make life resemble life again.

And don't get shocked at thinking "good case study". I was told that point blank by my doc once and was flustered as that session he was more interested in my identical twin who did not end up with PTSD symptoms and yet we were exposed to so much of the same trauma and even into adulthood a running patteren for us both. So why not her? Why me? He said he would love to talk to her and we would make a great case study as we are identical.

That is when they get lost and are not dealing with you as an individuial and YOUR case. Docs, they just grind my nerves.

And don't be taken back by Anthony being so blunt. He is and that has got to be the best help you can get to get going in the right direction and keep it up. I know I would be lost still without it. Now I have hope. If you are here long enough and seriously want to tackle this you have what it takes and he can help get you there if you listen. I am having a rough patch right now, but I still feel encouraged that I will make it out on the otherside. May not be the same as going in, but anything is better than not doing it and letting it get worse.

Actually I was quite busy with other things, got a lot of errands done, did some drawing (which always calms me) and then spaced out in front of the television last night for 5 hours... one of the hazards of having over 200 channels to choose from!!! But I do seem to be feeling a bit better. I think I may do the forum one day on, one day off... at least I want to try that for a while and see if it's helpful. I get pretty drained after I've been here.

Thanks. I will keep trying to find someone I like then. I was about ready to give up and just settle for whoever.

That sucks. I have had similar experiences with my asthma, I guess it is quite severe and unusually so, and since I am treated at a teaching hospital, the pulmonary interns are practically drooling over my chart half the time. I don't take that as personally though as I do with the trauma.

Oh no I actually liked it haaaa. I mean I was stunned because everyone is so cautious when speaking of it usually, but it was good. Made it more real for me in a sense.

I hope things get better for you soon, veiled. The one thing I feel lucky about is that right now I only have myself to deal with, and I'm really grateful for that. I can't imagine having to deal with other people's bullshit on a regular basis. Blech.

Hello Batgirl
I can't keep up to all you've bin writing and got a chance to look at a bit more and saw lots of good then some bad ,,, I'm so sorry bout your uncle and how your younger cuz is taking it ,,,
I wish you well batgirl and kinda hope your new communcation with your family Helps
will try to read more beatle

Please don't worry about trying to keep up Beatle. Just take care of yourself and read or don't read, whatever you feel like. Thanks for your kind thoughts.