Know what your saying MJ.

Made fake id's when younger to get into clubs, pubs, alcohol, etc etc. School id's are the easiest to fake...

Anthony, never made a fake ID for myself, but did acquire one from the MVA of New Jersey. It was a MVA-issued "Boat" license; the only difference between it and a driver's license was a "B" above my name. But who knew? All I had to do was fill out the application and get my picture made...they never checked a birth certificate or any other type of ID. Actually, I guess it wasn't really fake at all, since it was issued by a government body! Got me into some really good places, too.

<smiling at those memories> :loopy:

Still want to hurt things that are vulnerable. Went to sleep instead of physically lashing out. Scared to have kids.

I said earlier I couldn't remember much bad that I've done, but my aunt just reminded me of some things, and then that triggered some memories of my own...

I used to steal other kid's candy at school and eat it during recess, and punch the other kids if they tried to take the candy away from me. I guess it was quite a chronic problem as my parents had to be called in about it.

When my brother was about a year old (I was 11 at the time), I used to give him stuff he wasn't supposed to have, then tell my stepmum, and she'd take it away from him. I liked seeing him get upset and cry when the item was taken away.

My grandparents had a farm with sheep and other animals. I used to tease the sheep, trying to get them to run at me, in front of the closed barn door. Then at the last minute I'd jump out of the way, and the sheep would crash their heads into the door. They'd do it over and over again and never learn. Sheep are really dense.

About 5 years ago, when I first came to live here, I felt depressed one night and went to emergency. The psychiatrist who saw me was kind of an idiot, said I was bipolar, gave me a prescription for lithium and let me go. I took the lithium to a rave and sold the pills individually and used the money to buy a bike.

I thought of one other thing. It's not actually a bad thing but it's something I feel very queer about, like I'm a freak, and I've never told anyone. In fact I've lied about it on occasion. I'm still a virgin. I'm Catholic, and in highschool I was a lot more into being Catholic than I am now (now I don't even believe in God I don't think). Anyways I had signed a chastity pledge, to not have sex until I got married. Then soon after I graduated was the trauma in my family. Since then I've not made any friends, let alone gone on a date. So, I'm 25 now and still never done it.

Hmmm. I used to self-medicate. I used to sneak my parents alcohol at night, and was good at not getting caught. I was a stoner for a bit:pot: . I would sneak any type of meds i could. Painkillers and such. Then i dont know why i stopped, maybe i guess i felt stupid doing it, and it was always by myself. blah...At least i still dont, or id probably be dead.

Batgirl you are not a freak. I'm actually a little jealous. It really is a gift that you will give to your life partner.

Wow really? Thanks that makes me feel a bit better at least.

trust me batgirl, that is something a lot of wish we could have held on to, when you lose it it just has no meaning anymore, I think it is wonderful! Not to mention safe!

Hmmm. Well okay. And yeah I guess it is safer... no diseases. But I do feel pretty old. Anyways thanks. I feel like less of a freak now, definitely! Seriously I'm extremely embarrassed about it.

UGH I just realized my uncle can read this thread if he wants. I'm sure he'll be all happy about it too. Blah....