Hi John,

You may find it hard to believe how happy we're you found this forum. I'm personally thrilled. You certainly do have our support in all of this. And, just like what was said I too noticed how much your story oozes of PTSD.

I too was sexually abused as a child, and I learned to block it all way as well. And, just yesterday I was with my mother and I was digging for info. on the far, far past, and she just clearly didn't want to talk about it. She even said these very words to me, "It's just too much, I've just learned to block it out of my mind. I can't think about it." I was somewhat surprised as having learned something of dissociation here on this forum, and personally identifying. And then hearing the way my mother spoke and reflecting back, my god...I had thought for certain she had deliberately, stood by passively and did nothing. I thought she hated me all these years. Until the last couple years, I haven't trusted her with anything, I still won't talk about my PTSD with her as this is dangerous for me, as she's not well.

Well anyhow, you found us and you're right, this forum can help you get it all off your chest. You continue with the great initiative John, you've already shown. We're all here for you, reach out, speak up often and get to know us, as we will you.

Oh' by the way I identify greatly, with you on much, including 100% identif. with "sometimes I throw one of my fits, and I'm overcome with guilt what just happened.