Today has sucked.

Forgot my meds yesterday (not sleeping may have helped)
haven't slept more then two hours in 48, had major flashback last hight, panicked and cut deep (yay sarcasm)
T0oday I've had the shakes and have overall just felt shitty.
thinking about sleeping again, if only it wasn't so bloody hot.

I was very exhausted today, so I had a quiet day. Yesterday was very difficult for me emotionally as if was the first time I saw my parents since I have been off work due to PTSD.
So I just rested today: went out for tea with my husband and had a wonderful and restful nap. :sleeping: All in all, it was a good day.

Still jacked over teen moving out...

i had a much better day today, able to teach without laying my head on my desk all day. my dear husband had taken the day off, and he brought my lunch to school, and hung a coathook i've been trying to get up all year.
cathy

Spent the afternoon looking online for a home and desperatly searching for a mini ranch in Kansas. Just a couple acres. I am hitting dead ends just finding a home to rent to move in with 2 dogs and a couple cats (and I will have a little chicken I refuse to let go) She is a pet and near and dear. She can do a bird cage, she used too...

It has worn me out. And to think I have a couple hundred birds at least to find homes for and the live stock dogs will be easy to sell but I love them and don't want to. And most of the cats I have to place. I wish I could find a place so they could all go with me.

Just wore me out. Hubs is going in to put his notice in tomorrow and if he is given the boot then, which is typical out there, you give notice and they say nope you quit now... It will givew me the month I need before the move to finish cutting Xanax since he will be home.

He will be looking for a house over Thanksgiving up there and we will be moving at Christmas. We have settled all that at least.

So may crash once there as in Texas from the day I was born... It will be weird to say the least and the idea of having to have a home in a neighborhood even if temporary is daunting to me. And looking at the map I will be closer to my mom, ugh.

But Teen boy will be getting to go to the high school hubs dad is principal at so he is feeling better about that. I am pooped. And will do what I can to try and not lose it and prepare myself.

I've been restless and exhausted all day... what a brutal combination

I have been having a hard time the last few days with anxiety, muscle pain, fatigue and feeling scared. I feel that it is due to me seeing my dad on the weekend. I have been trying to take care of myself, but it is hard when your brain blanks out while doing relaxation techniques!:frown:
Today has been busy for me. I saw my counsellor this am and had a good session with her. She did a relaxation technique with me, and, temporarily, I felt better. We also had a repair man come to fix our fridge. $300 later, our fridge is working much better. I couldn't deal with the repair man, so my dear hubby did while I took a nap with our dogs. Lastly, I went to a religion class this pm. I was the only one who showed up (the teacher was there too) so we talked a bit then I came home. I am pooped! This day was a lot for me!

Today started out pretty shitty, but when I got home I was able to go out to dinner to celebrate my anniverary with my hubby. Me hating crowds, him hurting and walking with a cane...what a pair! We didn't stay too long, but at least we got to celebrate.

Woke up feeling quite ill. Improved. Then took a turn for the worse. A lot of very personal pain, then a series of uncontrollable threats of PTSD symptoms while out in public. Bought pack of cigg's and lost 7 straight days of smoke free style. Barely managed my way back home. Called husband. Called school to have children stay addition. 2 1/2 hrs. Called friend with PTSD and invited him over, listened and spoke in depth. When husb. arrived home he stepped in helping much. Watched some educ. program with children after supper.

Sorry to hear that hope, I never make it past 1 week either... Will eventually. I had been so dizzy from trying to quit I have hit the grass in my car. Not fun.

Very tired all day and screwed up getting a nap this afternoon when the baby did. So now up but I am busy on another computer thing I am doing and left alone to do it.

Looked for off buttons on the kids most of the afternoon... Why not at LEAST a mute button??? Temper did not want to stay in check but did. Been very foul...