veiled,

Sorry you are having a tuff time.. Hugs to you...

My day has been quiet...kinda scarey... my grown daughter called said "merry christmas".
I fed the duck, & the 3 horses...skipped feeding the cattle just figured they would have to eat grass today..
My hubby (ranger) hasn't gotten out of bed..Totally not like him. I know he was depressed that my daughter is w/her boyfriend & his family. We didn't have his boys this xmas. We did the dinner thing on Fri night. He was hurting
& anyone who touched his back sent him into pain hell.. the vibs from the kids bouncing on the floor was causing him pain inspite of the pain meds he'd taken.
My dog & my daughter's dog are my friends today.. I built a fire, drank some coffee, ate some toast, read my book and just vegged most of today..Peaceful..
Small town, so nothing open, otherwise I would pester the ranger into doing something to get his mind off the crap..
We avoided the nativity scene at his Dad's (he's a pastor) church on Fri. We brought our presents home.. Thankfully we got a Safeway gift card. At least we will have some food..
I will be glad when the holidays are over. Each yr they seem stressful to me.
my parents are gone. My brothers have their own families to be with. Rangers family makes big deal of it because they are so religious. The whole thing of "Jesus is the reason for the Season" kinda stuff. I don't remember much of the story..But did the Wise men have problems figuring out what to bring baby Jesus? Did the Wise men have spouses? If so, where were they?
Were they stressed? So many ???, the anwers don't matter... just goofy thoughts running amuck in my crazy brain.

Take care everyone the New Year is just around the corner -- good, bad, or indifferent --------- !!!!!!! ????????


D (wildcritter)

Veiled, lovely post and all, but nothing but anger, very little emotion.

Tell me, what do you "feel" at the moment, and don't give me any emotional response crap either lady, you know better than that.

Tell me why you feel this way for everything you feel. Did I provoke something with that little mental imagery piece? Are you seeing something you didn't want to see, or put your finger upon?

Since this is so public my dear... will PM since the mental imagery is still in a one on one not public yet.

But yes, very very pissy post. Yes, very angry. A lot of pain. I did knock myself out for a good bit of the day. Cried a lot, not sure why. I am not the crying type, I am so used to sucking it up, but lately emotions have found a release valve. Managed to at least to do it alone.

Keep walking the dogs... Tried tonight but my boots on the pavement were hurting my feet so I about threw the mother of all fits over no tennis shoes, cannot find them (did not throw fit, sucked it up and heart raced and dizzy). Found my hiking boots. Those are old and broke in. But soon as I made it half a block the sciatic (sp?) nerve was shooting down both sides my lower back and ass. Not working, had to go back. Also, learned sweat pants don't do jack shit in really cold weather. I need some thermals and some good walking shoes to keep this up.

I had a crazy busy day, but it was good. I was so busy I had no time for wallowing LOL. The kids had a blast and that is what matter. Our day started at 8:30 am this morning and we are just winding down with hot chocolate now. Can you say, hard-core X-mas?? LOL, it was nuts but worth the fun. Kids and dogs make my day I tell ya. My youngest got a "robo-sapien" which is hilarious. It farts and burps, whistles and winks, walks, yawns, roars.. OMG is that thing funny (and annoying after awhile), my eldest is in gaming heaven with 14 new games. Yep, that is right 14 of the bloody things! (I'm on the laptop LOL) I bought my dog "booties" for her poor little paw paws. (yes she is a suck when it comes to getting cold paws.. pretty funny for a dog that loves winter) and I almost peed my pants after putting them on. She did this funny flamingo dance with all four paws. Looked like she was trying to walk on marshmellow. Funnier than hell. Kids even came to watch and laugh their butts off. I have a "poor me look what mom did" picture that I will upload if I ever get on my main pc again. LOL. Hope everyone else had a great day.

Veiled: I would say the extreme pissiness is for the imagery too.. LOL he's hitting both of us with that one I see...

Bec

So Bec... Think Anthony has put some coal in our stockings??? Sounds like you are handling it well! That is great! I swear he is getting shit out of me if I had the $$$ I would go down under an smack him LOL!

yeas, I am sure it is for the best but in the mean time blows... But yahoo X mas is officially OVER!

I survived. Curled up and slept most of xmas day, but still survived.

Kids made me smile and I didn;t have a panic attack till I got home from sis's place.

Nope, it's called hiding in busyness. LOL.. I'll join in with the smacking him.. heheheheheh

bec

Now now... no whacking over the head you pair! You can whack me when we finally meet one day.

today was pretty good, went out to eat dinner with son in law and daughter and son. daugter leaving tomorrow, i will be worried sick til they get home. it will be 13 hrs. of nailbiting.lol.