Today was just another good day... not much new or happening. I did take the oldest boy to the airport this arvo as he is visiting his mother for the next two weeks... so it will be a little quiet around here for the next couple of weeks. Bub didn't like it when he was getting on the plane though, cause he started to crack it, but was easily enough bought with a biscuit. Won't know what to do with myself for the next couple of weekends... no football all weekend to run around with... maybe I'll just tap my head on the wall or something, see what comes from it!!!! he he he he...

Going to the zoo tomorrow with the little fella's play group, as school holidays are on for the next two weeks, thus playgroup closes also, so we just continue it privately each week... a social event I guess. So, the zoo we go tomorrow to look at some of my relatives.

lol! Talking of relatives...my brother had a going to college party at my parent's house yesterday (father's day). Everything went fine but I'm so dang uncomfortable! I feel like there is judgement everywhere. Whenever someone compliments me like 'you look nice', I'm waiting for a comeback or snide remark. My mother does have a habit of embarassing me in front of her sisters, so maybe that's it? Hub says I'm paranoid, but doesn't deny that my mom is very critical. Well, anyway, I've just started the day here. It's sunny and beautiful so I think I'll spend the day outside.

Enjoy the zoo Anthony. Make sure they don't lock you up!!!

Not a bad day - apart from other issues that I have mentioned on the ptsd affected forum.

Had an excellent lesson last of the day - hadn't had time to prep it, so made it up as I went along. Students got really involved in it. I just love it when that happens!!!

Nam, PTSD has that affect on us all... paranoia that is. Fight through those parts, and you soon get used to brushing it off, and not taking any notice unless someone actually does say something too you, which atleast is real then, not thoughts.

Good stuff Piglet... I used to like those lessons also when I taught within the military... its called "a cuff", ie. off the cuff... and I think they often turn out the best, as long as you have the knowledge already, those lessons rock.

The zoo was great. Kerrie-Ann took the day off and came also, so we were all stuffed by mid afternoon, returned home, did dinner, here I am now, then going to bed very soon because I'm a little tired after cutting laps around Melbourne Zoo for 5 hours. School holidays and all, so the zoo filled up pretty quickly with all the kids on holidays and their parents. Great day out it was. I had to go back and see the monkeys again before we left though, because they where sleeping when we first visited them in the morning... lazy damn monkeys. Actually, just about all the animals where sleeping.... so we had to do multiple rounds of some areas to see them when awake. Damn lazy animals... just like wombats they are, eats roots and leaves. LOL....

I'm tired today. I had a nightmare last night and I woke up suddenly from thunder. I got up to close the window and the door banged shut and I thought I was going to pass out. Serious startle response. I shook for a while after that. I did end up sleeping and thankfully, no more nightmares. I haven't felt like that in over a year. I guess it can sneak up on you.

Damn nightmares. I'm not remembering mine at the moment, but know I'm having them cos I wake up boiling hot and shook up and can't get back to sleep.

Glad the zoo was good Anthony. Had myself an encounter with a very pissed off tom cat today - didn't want its meds. Know the feeling, but they've just got to go down. Only one puncture wound sustained - had a worse paper cut this morning! Students were very impressed and mightily relieved that they didn't have to do the job (not worth the accident reports!).

This happens to me every morning. Either I remember the dream and spend the rest of the morning troubled by it, or I can't remember it... regardless every morning I wake up soaked in sweat and exhausted.

So far my day hasn't been too bad, extra sore today, but thats life.
Just ate some wicked Pepper Steak that my boyfriend cooked up :)

I'm so glad I don't have nightmares every night. I think once a month is okay by me. I'm trying to get refills of my meds this week and it's all caught up in insurance hell. There's no point in taking them if I can't take it as directed! Like, everyday! I've run out and missed two days now. I hope that doesn't influence how I feel too much. I've liked how I've been feeling. Sometimes I do feel like a prisioner to drugs. Will I ever wean off?

Exactly! Some meds require you to take them for an extended period of time for the full benefits, and if that's what you are taking, you need to get those insurance people to sort out the problem pronto! As much as being medicated sucks (trust me, I know) it's most likely for a reason, and your own good.


Today was alright, actually made some lasanga for supper.
Felt good, but I'm exhausted now, lol :sleep:

Yep, medication is indicative of actually taking it as recommended, or else you will see ups and downs in your attitude and general well being due to the dosage basically wearing thin. Missing days actually does affect you, trust me on that, even after my own denial previously when I was medicated, I do understand the issues it caused now. Basically, your body is addicted to it, and when taken away for short durations, basically you go into withdrawal, the same as a drug addict would, because medication is a drug, just a legally prescribed one.