OK, my day is starting well finally... At my old house I had spanish tile around my fireplace. At this new house it is brick going to the ceiling. One of my cats (little miss lovey dovey total goober... She misses when she jumps for counter tops so had to keep her as she is loving and ammusing) Well, she is literally climbing the walls... I had no clue cats could climb brick walls! OK, just cracked me up. She is like her owner!

LOL

also known as NAS

nod and smile

curls up and hides. Back to not sleeping.

Not a bad day, but long and drawn out. work was dead as a door nail, my car died on x-mas (and when I say died, I mean six feet under and unable to resitate dead) and have been walking to work. I have to get my old beast back on the road! Hopefully I will have her up and running by this weekend (crosses fingers.) Anyways, I just wanted to share a photo with you guys. This is my dog cougar wearing her new booties. As you can tell, she is not very impressed with me!!

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My day has been great! The girls have been busy with the thousands of new toys that are now strewn in each corner of the house. Hubs got me a dehydrator (yes, I asked for one! I love jerky!) My sister is coming tomorrow, so more fun with my niece I haven't seen in about six months. I hope this finds you all well.

Thank you for the acknowledgement and positive words. It helps much. Veiled THX for the words of luck. Just knowing I'm not completely alone helps so much,....And a complete contradiction to much of my life lived. Slowed down today and was able to find time to sit with both son and daughter with very little complaints from the other. Santa brought both a V-tech laptop ed. toy, that we all know is only truly awesome when shared with family. My goal is to make it a habit to sit still with kids, and often with them on this. Also games, plenty of board games none of which are any good if it creates arguments, battles and / or conflicts. My goal: plenty of my patience, understanding, acceptance of age and hoping to encourage and offer resolutions. As I'm anticipating lots of family lessons for each of us.

Day went very well....some confusion midway as I searched and searched and did not find what I so carefully placed (something rather imp.) in a safe, retrievalble spot. LOL Got passed this and further along into our day and evening and finding much enjoyment. Evening surprisingly well...so far, as I'm still hoping to sleep. Need and Love sleep!....lost sleep last night....instead up until 4AM looking through 30+ yr. old photo albums.

Becvan, look at your dog, cougar...hey she's cute, those booties are something else and I can still hardly believe such a thing exists. Do you ever dress her in dog clothing? My aunt has a little dog that she now dresses up often and Penny (dog) gets an attitude with her about it all, but always looks so darn cute and stays warm.

Best to US ALL for our continuing healing in the New Year. "2007", OMG!....never thought I'd live this long....so much to be grateful for, despite the healing /growing pains of life. Life as it is and certainly not as I once fantasized it should be.

I took a nap after boyfriend went to work.
Bad idea.... because he normally wakes me up when I'm having nightmares.

Screamed out in my sleep until I woke myself up.
Came out of the nightmare crying and terrified,
called boyfriends cell phone only to here it ring beside me (he forgot it @ home)

Surgery on Jan 8... hopefully that's why the nightmares have intensified so quickly.

take care all

i had a good day, out with my son, shopping, etc. he always makes me laugh in spite of myself, like living with a cartoon.
cathy

YA, what is going through your head about the coming surgery?

I try not to think about the surgery (yes, I know that's not "healing" but I didn't need a major breakdown right befor the Christmas family get together)

Basically I just am not looking forward to more surgery/pain/physical healing....
meh... time to start picking my brain now that the holidays are over.

I guess what I am trying to get at, is this isn't about healing as such, but just coming to terms with your current emotional issues for this future event. What is going through you head is more what I want to know YA? What do you feel, what is really worrying you, not the surface stuff? What do you fear from this surgery?