Bec, that news about work just blows :(
I know it's not that inspiring... but remember that when things can't seem to get worse... things can only get better.

I hope your appointment with the financial aid went OK, (fingers crossed)
last time I had to go there I think I ended up waiting over 2 hours for my appointment... and it only took her 4 minutes to decide that because my common-law partner makes more than $700 a month, I was not eligable for any financial assistance.
I don't know about everyone else... but I personally don't see how 2 people and a dog are expected to survive on less than a thousand dollars a month in Alberta/Canada!! (the average price to rent a 1 bedroom apartment is $1100/month...)
My accident happened in the middle of my college graduation process... so I ended up losing the job I had lined up for myself... plus all my 'student' medical insurance expired shortly after... so I was/am left with my student loan to pay back and disabled.

Sometimes the system just has its glitches I guess.

If you are feeling like you have to 'rebuild your life', you've got a support partner to help you get through the tough times. PM me if you ever need
So far I've gotten as far as trying to get my mail/bills in order... get some organization to my day, etc.


Ummmm... right now my face hurts... debating whether to take some pain meds or save them for tomarrow (I only have 2 left)
Ughh, I just realized I have to get up in 4 hours... if I don't get woken up by boyfriend before he leaves for work, I'll sleep in for my doc appointments....

see everyone in the morning

Well, the appointment went really well actually. I'm on welfare/disability. I have an employment defferal for three months. (In case no one here knows, in Ontario you have to "work" for your welfare. You paint peoples houses, pick up garbage etc.. you have to do so many hours a month and attend constant workshops.. if you don't see ya later. It's actually called Workfare now..) She was really good about it.. lol almost understanding.. i suspect she knows about PTSD) I will be getting enough for my rent at least! I forgot half the stuff I was supposed to bring in, but she gave me a list so I remember it and can bring in the other stuff later. Thank god. Finally got some sleep, slept hard actually because I just woke up. I think I was impaired from lack of sleep earlier.. still feel out of it now. But that was the first decent sleep (my god when three to four hours is decent.. lol that is scary) I got in quite some time. Still have a damn migranine from clenching my teeth.. grr..

thanks for all the support guys, this has been trying to say the least and I appreciate it. Ohh and other good news. went from owing the government 50,000 for student loans to 40,000.. LOL yeah yoohooo.. (sarcasim.. lol)

bec

Well, migraine is finally gone.
Actually ate something today and kept it down XD
always a good sign.
Still real exhausted but am actually feeling half human. Not exactly sure what the other half is yet.

Good to hear bec... congratulations.

Well, my parents had planned a vacation for me...
Supposed to leave for Cuba on Monday... notice I said "supposed to"
Yup.. Docs don't want me flying this soon after surgery, plus after 8 months of waiting I finally have an appointment at the pain clinic next week
The worst part was breaking the news to my mother. :(
I always end up feeling guilty or that it's my fault

Thought I'd be all brave this morning and take the bus to my doc appointments (too scared to drive with the ice on the road)
HA, I spent more time on the wrong buses than I did travelling on the proper bus.
I kept panicking at the bus station and just jumped on the first bus I'd see. lol. oh what a day

Also... I cannot wait until the stitches are out and I can pick my nose again!!!
The itching is killing me!!!!!

Take care ;)

OMG that is hilarious! You know, if I have an itch somewhere, I itch it! I have no willpower when in comes to itches....so hope you can relieve that itch soon!

I'm doing ok here. Really tired but not sleeping well. It has my hubs a bit concerned. He keeps asking me if I'm ok. Well, I think I am. I just take a while getting to sleep. And when I do sleep it's the awake sleep. I barely go under and I wake constantly. I think it's all hormone related...LOL.

We have big plans for tomorrow. It's my birthday and we are sending the kids off to the inlaws for the weekend. I can't wait to have my house clean for two consecutive days! And also a nice night out with hubs: dinner and a movie.

My day is great, hubs is employed again since we have moved! Neck is hurt from a wrong move this AM... Note to self do not fly out of bed to hit cat with pillow. Things are melting finally just to refreeze overnight but I think we have more white crap forcasted, I hope it is a no show! Have to ask. If snow falls on ice will I be able to walk on it or still bust my ass?

It will be even more slippery until it is packed down because you can't see the ice.. LOL you are gonna bust your ass.. hehe

I finally started sleeping, I slept last night from 3 to 7 (and in a coma sleep, phone ringing, kids talking to me.. i heard nothing) then from 2am to 7am and then again from 9 this morning to 12. can not believe how hard i am sleeping. one of my buddies came to check on me. he walked right in my house.. yelling out my name and I heard nothing until he touched me to see if I was still alive. Ahhh extremes, no sleep to only sleeping. I'm ready for bed again and I've only been up for an hour. Everyone keeps trying to drag me outta the house and make me eat. I just want to sleep and tell everyone to f'off. LOL.

bec

You need it so take it any way you can get it when it comes! That is what hubs told me until I started finally sleeping at night... aside from a few bad days.

Happy birthday for tomorrow Nam!

Veiled - be careful on that ice!

We may be getting a little of the white stuff here next week. It only takes an inch to bring the country to a standstill. I'm hoping for several inches so we get a snow day or two and I can get my marking done!

Not too bad myself today, although I have eaten a huge amount of chocolate in the last 48 hours. I'm getting that "tight-jeans" feeling now, so i'm going to have to start being more careful with the chocolate levels! It's so strange, as I've been struggling to keep the weight on for so long and all of a sudden it's piling up. This is since I had the flu after Christmas. I wonder if it's reset my metabolism?

I hope not, cos the high metabolism was the only good thing about ptsd for me - I could eat lots of my favourite food :(