sorry you had such a rough day veiled, praying for a better one tomorrow.
cathy

kids are finally starting to feel better. Ethan went back to school today. Told them to call me if he starts getting too wiped out. Now it's my turn. Went to the doctors yesterday and found out that I have bronchitis and the flu. I hurt everywhere and everytime I cough I swear that I'm going to cough up my lungs. Also keeping a close eye on what I'm coughing up as there is blood in it. Don't completely understand but my doctor questioned Congestive Heart Failure? He sent my X-rays to the hospital for the radiologists to read. Was supposed to have my second with the therapist today but doc said no I am supposed to be on bed rest. It bugs me but I know he's right. The more I move around the more pain I have in my back and chest. Also woke up this morning feeling like someone beat the crap out of my kidneys last night. Going to call him when the office opens to find out if this is common or if its something entirely different.Thank God my mom is here to help with the kids.

Thinking of you V, hoping something improves there...

Well, between the kids, I'm already pulling out my hair. Poor Matt, he asked me first thing this morning if I would sleep on the couch for him again. He's completely freaked out about his brother now. Of course I will sleep on the couch so he feels safe. Then I had to call my ex-boss and find out where my check is (it's two weeks late). She is making me go down there to get it. Fine. I'm shaking like a leaf, but I will go and get it. Then that will be it for that bloody place. I have to drop off another thing (errand) and I think that is about all I can handle. At least this will force me into the shower and some clothes. That's my bright side.

Ugh, this day is not starting out great.

bec

I need a shower too... Just why can't I tak one from the sofa? Sorry don't expect much sense from me today. Thanks for the prayers and thoughts guys. I find myself praying the baby is "just downs" like the last one. Not something worse. That is the hard one for me. And I can only imagine what she is going through.

Praying veiled, praying.

Well, called the doctors office when it opened and he wanted to see me again. Had me pee in a cup and found blood in my urine also. I'm just falling apart. Not sure if its urinary or kidney infection. All I know at this point is that I'm exhausted.

V, you are in my thoughts. My prayers go out to you and brother and SIL.Hope for everyone all goes well. Big hugs for everyone.

:loopy: :crybaby: :hit-boss: :dont-know : too crazy for words.

fair day...exhausting evening...progress despite myself

My back hurts, my head hurts, I'm not sleeping, am out of sleepers I ache all over and it's raining and I'm out of clean clothes i feel like crying or cutting or throwing shit. Ranting isn't helping. Woke up to screaming this morning realised it was me could have sworn my brother was in my room he wasn't bt that doesn't stop the fact that I thought he was and my mind convinced me he was. Can't sleep don't want to actually scared to so tired but won't sleep. can't let him get to mee slightly manic ignore the lack of punctuation I don't mean it Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrah today so sucks. Two more days to Luke time though can't wait.

Well, point out the good part.

Oh if it keeps raining like this there is no way I'll get out of here this weekend.

Feels like running but naked through the rain. Refuses to Gacks. I hate my head today. Feels like my mind can't stop.

Toady so far I'm feeling a little better. Still waiting for the Dr. to call with the test results. Broke off a tooth last night so I won't ask myself again "what else can go wrong". At least I'm getting back to the point where I can think and process stuff again. Still very tired and sore.