Happy birthday hope...

Just quickly browsing while I post to the DIT-Rough thread and wanting to find out how others are doing and so I open up this thread to find out, and.....

....Wow! Wonderfully suprised, and Thank You All ! so much for your Happy B'day wishes. My B'day was very nice. I did struggle a bit with (my mind processing) much noise. Kids were very excited, with all sorts of creative ideas. LOL It really was very nice though, and we ended our evening relaxing over a good movie.

Today, I leave for a few days and will be back, reading through the World News sect., once school begins on Mon.

I'm still embarrassed and somewhat shocked with myself, that I missed viewing this sect. entirely for months around here. Info. & Ed.....Great stuff.....Painful sometimes, yet Educ.

Again, THX, and my best to you'all. I was thinking just the other day, how if my comp. went ker'put or something, how that terrible isolation, lonesom., and lack of support and the feelings and belief of being horrible unique, might likely return for me. .............Just some gratitude felt and shared for the forum editors, anthony, and all of us.

Hope, Happy birthday!!!!:claps:

Happy Birthday Hope!! Overloaded my systems today went to sexual amd Rape consellor and to my PTSD shrink all in one day Im going nuts here I dont recomened that to anyone way to much Im shifted \in to a hypervigilancant state and cant get out im so edgey and too much info went in and out about to many things this is not confortable level of stress it is very upsetting i cant keep my head i anything im way to stressed triggered what ever dont edver do what I did today please for your own piece of mind. it doesnt feel safe I dont feel safe cause of today

hugs mouse tight

Well, I've actually slept and is having a great day XD

Just been hanging around with Luke, going to a mates place tonight for them to RP (d&d stuff)

I've got a good book and I know I have a safe place there.

Hugs everyone tight and bounds off

Mad most of the day.
Boyfriend asked if I forgot to take meds...
and of course he was right, I had completely forgotten.

LOL, this system works much better than him arguing back at me.
I don't take it as an insult... I want him to ask if I took my meds.
'cause 9 out of 10 times, if I'm b*tchy, I've missed a dose or two.

It's now 3:14 a.m. and I'm making meatballs and cleaning the kitchen...
...don't ask, lol, I'm a weirdo, I know. ;)

This is not going to be a good day. Got woke up at Midnight by an inconsiderate cell phone alarm set to remind my husband he has a order he has to post at 8 a.m. I called for my son to get me meds as I sometimes can get back to sleep with a sleep aid if I don't allow myself to become fully coherent. But....Not happening. I was pissed all the way around, Pissed at the cell phone, Pissed at the alarm, Pissed at my Husband for setting the freaking alarm for that hour and then having the phone in the room. I got out of bed, as my youngest has a bed in our room and I did not want him to wake and compound the damage done. So, I go to use the bathroom in the hallway and one of my dogs took a piss in there on the floor, so I scrubbed that, started the laundry, mad as hell and yelling at my husband and my son the whole time. Then I went out into the darkness in front of my house to smoke, I don't smoke in my house and bitched that the weathermen were wrong and there was no wind or snow as they were advising we were going to have a blizzard tonight. Then sitting out there, heard a roar and then something screaming, I assume a coyote, wolf, bear, or worse yet a cougar got a rabbit. The screaming lasted about 10 seconds. My son came out to check on me and made me promise to go to bed if I got sleepy. Oh....they really are so clueless. I actually cried, it does not happen often when I am upset and made my husband to get up and change the laundry as in if he can ruin my little precious sleep, I can mess his life up too. I now know that I was wrong, but I am still mad and it is now 3:30 a.m. and it is not flipping worth it even if I could go back to sleep. I wish daylight would come so that I could go out and smoke and not have to worry about being eaten by some wild hungry creature just copping a meal......Yes, that would be me. Okay, I hope you don't mind that I posted here and vented. I am still new here, but just have a gut feeling I am going to be around for a while as it is a little comforting to know that there are other "me's" out there that may understand a bit of what I go through. I really have got to get out of this mood, its a very dark mood and it won't do any good for anyone. This sucks.

'Morning Portabella and Welcome :)

Your more than welcome to come and vent here anytime, lol
and boy do I hear you! it's 4:35 a.m. and I'm doing laundry too.
My back has been spasming so it's not letting me get to sleep, ughh

Sorry I have not been in here... Missed it, Hope. Happy Birthday.

My day(s) can we just settle on it blows? Still taking a break 99.9% of the time. Will be back to annoy y'all soon, I am sure.

Ouch Veiled,
days that blow... suck! (errrr?)
I know you're just chilling right now,
take it easy and I hope you start feeling better soon!