Make your mark daily..........just wish I didn't post and make this mark.

Truly very sorry for my negativity. Just having a difficult day, like we all do sometimes.

Hope

hope, this is exactly what this thread is for.
If you are having a shitty day... post it!
If you are having a great day... post it!
Each day/moment is different, just because you feel a certain way right now, doesn't mean that it won't be different later.
Take care hope :)

Oh yeah... I almost forgot...

Today is my birthday :)

(looks like me and veiled share the same b-day)

Well, happy birthday! Hope it is a good one!

Trying not to stress too hard. Waiting for results from the doc my son is seeing today to make sure his second flight is not canceled too over his ear drum. Wish me luck, hope he will fly out the 9th fingers crossed!

curls up

Been so tired lately. On top of a whole of oh, no sleep, I managed to **** my knee up

Flat out walking on it, my shoulder keeps freezing up *grrrrs* can't sleep and head ia absolutely killing.

gacks and hides

went to doc, won't change meds (on zoloft) told me to try working around the ocd and won't give me any sleepers

feels like throwing a tantrum.

I just want to fecking sleep!!!!

is sleep too much to ask? I'm not greedy, six hours would be enough, eight even better!

growls and snuggles everyone.

heck'of'a morning.......did get a brief nap, ......witching hrs. passed better than usual......went in support of the tenor saxoph., to a dynamite jazz perform. tonight with husb and enjoyed it very much.......also did make it into school yest. as lunch mother and that there success felt enormous to me given some of the intrusive crummy memories I'm wading through almost daily these days.

was getting my fever down to 102 today at least... Now I can barely keep it down to just over 103. I am pissed off about shit at home, sick, and I need to be ready for my son's flight coming in tomorrow/today. I am wiped out but I am in such a foul mood wondering if feeling so ill I am likely to throw something at hubs making me worse and at 2 AM he may not like it... Still think he has it coming in a big way... God I feel like I am gonna puke and hurt. I hate this shit.


ETA... Is it reasonable to say I feel like I am dying right now? I think have a cold but not snotty... flu? who the hell knows. How do I rest?

i'm sorry you're sick, veiled. are you taking ibuprofen for the fever? drinking LOTS of fluids. it really will help flush the virus out of your system faster. i hope it's not the flu. praying for you, i know you want to enjoy your son's visit.

hey grass, i had trouble getting anything to help me sleep, not even ambien, etc. much to my surprise, unisom helped me to get to sleep without making me a zombie the next day. worth a try, and over the counter. do a drug interaction screen with it and your meds, first, though.
cathy

Many thanks, Cathy. Need more prayers for the following, not for me but my family.

Today I have very little recall of. I remember feeling like I was high as I could get, so dizzy. Been taking Motrin every few hours for the fever. I woke up to it just over 104.

Not sure if Motrin and xanax was making me so high feeling or the fever and attacks.

My MIL showed up and she has always been very careful of my space but not today. I was too ill. She came in my house and sat with me until others showed, either my son or my husband. I was horrified, my house was a wreck, she had never seen me without my face on, hair sticking up all over, pale and Well not sure what looked worse, me or the house. I just could not clean.

She took the kids shopping and I said you need to not spoil them so much, you have 3 grand babies moving up here in a couple years and need to save some for them. Then I got the most heart breaking news...

Some of you knew my SIL was having issues with her pregnancy, baby had issues. Thought the baby would make it. She said my husband did not tell me? The baby died. They have the child in an urn now trying to decide where to move on from there... Oh I feel so much for her, my heart breaks. I got after hubs that he cannot keep me in a bubble, but he said he did not think I could handle it. Shit like I am not going to find out??

My son showed up for a brighter side and I feel so whole having him in my home sleeping and playing so much with his little sister and big bro. He is here and I still miss him.

My MIL grabbed me and gave me a big hug and said I needed it and she did not care if she caught the flu too. She seems convinced that is what I have. I hate trying not to have too much contact with my son as he gets everything and always catches anything in the air. So close but I cannot love all over him like I wanted.

I may pop in for updates of my day but will not be editing as i am just too damn sick and nothing makes sense to me right now to help. Plus I will be spending time with my son as much as I can.

Why do I feel so flipping high??? After 4 Motrins I did get it down to 100.5 for about and hour but seems to be hanging at 103. This shit blows...

Hope everyone else is doing well and will see y'all in a few days if the computer that is frying is still working.