And that just reinforces to you Nam, that you have actually come a long way in your PTSD, and should not doubt yourself. Such a little statement, "The house in not clean; Oh Well." Doesn't that just help reinforce too you that it doesn't matter if the house is not clean for that day, in that you achieved something better for your children today, to make them happy, and as a consequence, made yourself happy!!! Interesting ha?

Whilst nobody really wants to live in a dirty house, and I don't mean just messy for a day or two, but dirrrrttttyyyy..... you knew that the house was just a little messy, and allocated your time to bringing something a little more special to your family and your holiday.

You may not see that Nam, so I just wanted to point it out too you. You give yourself too much off a hard time at times.... instead of looking at your positive outlook, commonsense and management that you ARE achieving on a day to day basis. Well done...

Thanks guys :redface:


Still feeling quiet,
just like a lost feeling...
ummmm.... yeah,
anyways, just keeping busy with things around the house

Hang in there YA... you will go through many off these bouts yet to get to the other side of PTSD. It isn't easy, but is achievable with hard work and mental preparation, and mental strength. At a guess from conversations with you, your one hell off a tough girl mentally... because you don't like anything getting the better off you... a competitive person... now you are competing with PTSD, so don't let it win!

Hey YA. Hope today is better for you. Feeling a bit wiped out myself at the moment. Got presentations tomorrow - 1000 people in the sports hall and the temperature is going to be in the 80s. Staff have to wear gowns too. Not looking forward to it!

Again, thanks... :)

Anthony, I'm definatly don't like things getting the better of me...
this is the biggest challange of my life...
thinking of it as a competing with PTSD is a good way of looking at it actually.... my daily fight

Piglet, things can only get better for me...
and BTW...
OMG! 1000 people, goodluck!
I'm hoping to hear back that it went well :)

Doc appointment in an hour...
just chilling till then,
Still feeling quiet...
but quiet is kinda good at the same time

Hey Piglet, a big goodluck with that presentation of yours. Large groups can be a little overwhelming... not sure if your used to that type of audience or not. Myself, I'm pretty easy with presentations to large audiences from my military experience. I have commanded hundreds under me, lectured and presented to Battalions and so forth... so I guess that was one very positive side to my military background... being the confidence I gained in speaking and presenting myself.

I know you will do well Piglet... because your a champion at your job, you strive for excellence within your work, because its something your passionate about... well, that is my understanding from reading your feedback here anyway.

Can't wait to hear about how it went for you.

YA... quiet is good, as long as its still positive. I am actually going to post a PTSD timeline to recovery in a minute, from my accounts and others experience and feedback I have gained, so people can see some sort of normalicy to their recovery process when they are actively educating and fighting the PTSD. Hopefully this might give you some scope that what your going through right now, being the quiet phase, is actually quite normal under some circumstances.

Thanks! The parade was great, but my kids hated it!! I think the fourth has gone down as the worst holiday ever for my kids! They clung to my leg as if the world was under seige any time there was a loud noise like a siren (we only had about four firetrucks in the parade with sirens going...), fighter jets flying, fireworks going off......I think they cried more times than I could care to count. They're reactions reminded me on how I reacted to loud noises during the worst parts of PTSD, which in turn made me think of all the military personel that are suffering with ptsd might not be enjoying the fireworks much. Ironic since this is a holiday celebrating our freedom and birthday as a nation. Overall, I enjoyed it. It was fun seeing other people that were having fun. It's contagious.

Glad you had some fun Nam, even if it was too much for your kids this time.

I had an interesting day. slept badly with very unpleasant nightmares. Then there was a lot of messing around at work first thing because someone hadn't done their job properly. I had to go for a walk so I wouldn't explode at anyone or send any red-hot e-mails!

Coped quite well at the presentations. I volunteered to hang around for late people, which meant I got to be at the back. Had a little panic when I was told to go sit down the front, but I said that I was fine where I was thanks! Fortunately, the issue was not pushed, cos I think I would have left altogether!

Had a run-in with a parent. Sorted it very calmly. Then I went back to my office, picked up the dog and went home to rest. Going for a nice long walk this evening, so hopefully will relax a bit. Take care everyone!

Anthony that timeline would be great whenever you get a chance!
It would help assure me that I'm not (or help recognize if I am) taking backward steps at this whole battle.

Nam you're doing wicked! A parade and everything?
All those people would have made me panic, lol
glad you were able to enjoy it :)

Piglet I also would have sat in the back,
(and left if forced to move, lol)
good job on everything, you did great!

No appointments today!!!!!!
So damn happy!
Slept in, everything is good so far.
Might bring my little dog to the pet store to get her a pretty collar.
(somehow, even having my dog with me, makes going into a store easier)

Today has been awesome. I feel great. The only problem is my insomnia. I'll take it though. It's much better than some of the other symptoms I could be having. I remember what that used to be like (shudder). I would have to do lamaze on my way to therapy because I'd have to see people in the waiting room . I'd hyperventilate if I didn't do breathing exercises! Hang on, it does get better.