I HATE other people in waiting rooms...
especially the ones that stare...
...grrrr... i don't like the stares

Heading to bed...
doc appointment in 6 hours,
I was just too wound up to sleep.
Took meds though so I should be fine

Hey all,

Quick post to say Hi and that I am getting fatter by the moment. Anthony does not think that I am getting that big but then he should lug one of his children around. I am quite a small build and he produces, long, lanky babies that end up with no room to move!! I am well now, Anthony and baby unfortunately are not. Both of them have a nasty cold. I got rid of mine by a visit to the acupuncturist!! Hope this finds you all well or at least getting some sleep!

Congrats on the great day Nam... good feelings are often our best medicine. Get more of those days please... they really do help. I love how you handled the crowds, at which point by the end of your post, you realised you are getting better than you have been previously. A little up and down our lives, but moving forward and recognising, and accepting, our achievements is important.

That's a little worrying actually, because I have read studies about how we with PTSD can affect our children by our reactions, ie. where exactly our PTSD is in the scheme of things. Children are much smarter than we give them credit. I think you need to talk with your children maybe Nam, about whether those fears where because what they have seen mummy do, or whether they were actually scared from the loud noises.

You know best... I am just thinking about some of the studies, and how children of PTSD parents can often end up with symptoms of PTSD all because they mimic, or thought, their parents reactions where normal. This is actually something constantly in the back of mind with the kids around, to ensure they don't see what is PTSD, to replicate or think its normal to react like that.

Congrats piglet on the great success with your presentation, the cool approach to the parent and seating issue. Bloody well done, and a huge congratulations on a great job.

YA... working on it. I have it half done on here already, I just turned it off from visibility until I finish it. It basically walks through my timespan, and those around me with PTSD, and how each significant portion is appropriate, what is a normal healing time if actively healing vs. half arsed approaches, etc etc. I hope it actually helps many realise that healing from PTSD in full flight, certainly is no quick fix, but certainly can be fixed, just not cured.

Me... went to State of Origin football last night, sold out game, 53,000+ attendance, was great. Only problem was that I got the damn flu, which I had a bit yesterday, but laid me up most of today, and the little fella also... so I haven't been online for the last 30+ hours, and wow... how much work accumulates in that time, and good posts to read and respond here...

I hate the flu, it really sucks. I can handle PTSD symptoms better than the flu at times I think, because atleast I can control those symptoms to some point, but not the damn flu... nuts!

Anthony, I hope you get better soon.
Funny you say that, cause I don't think that way at all. There were some days (long gone now) that I wish I had cancer instead. Physical pain is much easier for me to handle.

Kerrie-Ann, I am so excited for you! My hub and I are now "discussing" the possibility of another. (He wants a BOY. It's all up to him on that XY thing.) And remember it's not FAT!!! It's BABY!

Get well soon Anthony - glad flu doesn't pass across the internet!

I haven't done too badly this year. We usually get a round of flu at the start of every term when all the students come in under one room and spread their germs about! Only had a cold once this year so far, which I find strange, cos isn't ptsd supposed to weaken the immune system?

Not sure which one is worse...
but having the flu is horrible!
I hope Anthony and the little one get better soon!

Kerrie-Ann, I've never had to lug a child around for 9 long months...
but I feel for you.
I'm glad you are doing well, and I'm glad the accupuncurist did the trick :)

Slept in this morning... missed my morning Doctors appointment,
Darnit! I hate when I do that!!!!!!
Got my other afternoon appointment in 45 min,
so I should make that one, lol

Nam,

We were only going to have one......one turned into two.......and two has almost turned into three. I love the little creatures. I am not sure that I understand the wanting a boy thing because we have two (Anthony's and ours) and I reckon this one might be a boy as well. Not that I mind, I will be happy with a healthy baby. We have this joke in our house about the 'willys staying on the silly one's' - consequently, I live in a house of silly ones!

YA,

Its not really that bad. I love being pregnant and if I had met Anthony when we were both a bit younger I would have a tribe of them. It is like I said though, Anthony's babies tend to be long limbed little creatures and to me they often feel like they are cramped! That's what happens when you pick a little host I guess. Actually I am certain they are cramped because poor Alexander would have limbs in all sorts of weird places while I was carrying him. Funny to watch from the outside, he even used to do somersaults.

Feel a shitload better today... damn 24hr flu or something, or the stuff I took worked a treat, one or the other. I hate being sick with the flu... yuk!

Nam, see to me, I love the mind, I think the mind is a glorious and powerful thing, and since being a little tacker doing martial arts, I guess I learnt alot about myself, and how to control my mind, control pain and so forth, so I would rather the mind games than the physical issues, such as cancer.

I can fix my mind, because I am very head strong and stubborn when it comes to my mind, and I won't allow it to get the better of me for long, so I personally find it much better for me.

I think this definately would impact on a persons recovery from PTSD, to how their mindset is, and whether they are a mentally strong person or not. PTSD certainly helps show you that anyway.

YA, here is that PTSD timeline, and it also contains a snapshot of my basis for that timeline... long winded, but pretty accurate and may contain useful bits and pieces for others to relate, just so they know what is going on is pretty normal.

Doing well today. I feel that rereading my memory log didn't cause too much hurt. I'm surprised. I shook a little and had trouble falling asleep (normal for me) and got up and was fine. Now, that's two times that for sure I thought I was going to crack, based on past experience, and I didn't. I hope that's good.